Disclaimer: Damn it, I don't own Tokyo Babylon... CLAMP, you meanies! .;;
Notes: The sequel to Wish: Like Shattered glass. Spoiler is his X backstory. And blah, so what if this idea was possibly done to death? X_X
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If You
Written by Ayako, 5-19-02
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It's been a while, Subaru-kun.
Even now, I can clearly remember your lovely eyes, voice, and expression as I told you the truth.
Utterly, utterly beautiful, yet so weak at the same time.
And look now, you've changed more physically than mentally. The traces of boyhood have vanished
to reveal a young man, hardened and aimed for victory. Your eyes are still the window to your soul which
is now filled with more anguish.
But... you're still kind. You've always been kind.
You had begun to bore me at the end of our little bet. While you were most beautiful with your tears, your
sadness, and your broken heart... You were still nothing. You were simply a child, a toy, like fragile
glass.
/"You will be killed by the one you like most..."/
The words of my mother. Staying eternally young, eternally smiling, knowing the new Sakurazukamori
would be a magnificent predator. As of yet, I haven't reached my fate. Am I to be eternally, the last
Sakurazukamori unless I somehow die of old age?
/"Do you know why the sakura are so beautiful?"/
So naive, so innocent. This was the moment that would begin your grief.
/"It is because of the corpses that are buried underneath the tree."/
When you had cried simply because of that, it had made me... slightly startled, I suppose. Being an
onmyouji, you may be able to understand the feelings a spirit has. Their vengeful attitudes... things
left behind that they would never forget.
While they were filled with anger and hate, perhaps, maybe even jealously. The tree was filled with bliss
at the fact their blood had satisfied its hunger, and it remained beautiful as they suffered, losing every
bit of humanity they may have possessed.
Mother had killed my father, and I had killed my mother.
The feelings I have for you, Subaru-kun, are nothing to me. I have no emotions, maybe I have no
heart besides the physical.
If there is anything, anything I feel for you...
If you feel this so called feeling described as love for me...
Then try to kill me.
... the wind blew, petals disappearing off into the sky... before a shower of them fell to the ground.
... a whisper from the past, if i was ever an innocent...
'And set me free.'
-OWARI-
::crosses fingers:: PLEASE DON'T BE OOC!