Dan's p.o.v
there I was; my face plunged into the pillow. how could my life get any worse?!, the person I loved was getting married. I felt like such an idiot I could have told him how I felt before he meet that bitch, but how could I blame myself?! I didn't tell him coz I had a gut wrenching feeling that he wouldn't feel the same way; so I tried keeping my distance from those feelings. the other. the other bad thing is I have to spend hours a day watching them be so affectionate, and if that wasn't the case I had to sit around with phil going on, and on about his fiancé : raven. I just wanted the old phil back, raven seemed as if she was changing him into a snobby murtue adult that doesn't have time for immature losers like me. I felt like phil was just sticking around with me coz i'm his best man, just a stupid toy he tell's his problems to. I was also growing suspicion toward raven something about the way she act's when phil isn't around make's me curious about her, and what she is hiding. I was brought back down to earth when I heard someone call my name: "dan!" yelled phil, throwing a totoro across the room onto my body. "what?!" I mumbled into my pillow. "you raven, and I are going to lunch right now to discuss the wedding" phil declared. I knew raven choose to do this stupid lunch meeting, but I didn't want to disappoint phil. It was to late to tell him how I felt about him know, so I just had to stick around watching his life fall into place while mine crumbled into the deept's of oblivion . "i'll be ready in a minute, can you please leave my room?!" I asked. "oh...uh...sure" he said stumbling out closing the door . just seeing phil made my heart climb down, and break in two remembering I lost my chance long ago.
I jumped out of bed pulling on a pair of jeans, and a plaid shirt phil forgot to pick up after a video we filmed a few weeks ago. as I pulled the shirt on sniffing the faint smell of phil's scent, I remembered a few day's ago he said he was going to give up youtube, and get a 'suitable job', just the thought of phil moving out, and leaving youtube...forever made my eye's wheel up with tears. I teared down the thought, and walked into the kitchen only to see raven sitting down on the breakfast bar stool. her stupid blonde curl's flowed down to her shoulder's, and her idiotic black dress was wrapped rightly around her body. how could phil fall for her?! she was nothing,but a pretty face,and she never listened to anything phil had to say. phil walked into the room, and planted a kiss on her cheek, my heart sank, I bit my bottom lip trying to hold back tears. "ready?!" I asked forcing a smile onto my face to make my facial expression seem less disappointed, and hurt from the sight of that kiss. "yeah let's head off" said phil.
we sat into our set's. there boreing discussion all entered my ear as slur's. I just drew my attention to the people walking past, and listening to there comments. I looked down at the menu placed out onto the table. the fresh air hit my face roughly. I was astonished the prices were extremely high the only thing I could afford was a bloody glass of water. although I knew phil was going to pay for everything I could not let him. "hey, dan are you alright you haven't been talking?!" phil asked, searching my eye's for an answer. "yeah...I just...aren't we going to discuss the wedding?!" I asked. phil, and raven glanced at each other letting out a small laugh."dan, we just discussed the whole plan" raven said. I had completely forgot the reason for us being here, I just thought this was another lousy day's where phil felt bad for leaving me alone, and brought me along there stupid dates. "oh... " I uttered. as the waiter came to bring along our drinks,i noticed I was the only one who had ordered soda from us three. I felt like an immature child around them as they sipped there posh drinks. this wasn't phil, at al. "phil, remember we always use to get soda?!" I asked glaring at raven as I slurped a sip of my soda. "uh...actually,no..." phil lied. how could phil lie over something so simple?!, it was the truth, and he had no reason to hide it. "right...that was...erm...just me" I said. I did not say the truth coz I knew he would denie it, no madder what I said, he just wanted raven to stay infacuaded with him. "remember the cat whickers we used to draw on each other for other people's enjoyment?!" I asked, letting out a small laugh. "dan, what are you talking about?!, we never used such childish thing's!" he yelled. I couldn't believe him, how was he just letting go our friendship like that?!...over a girl...what was going to happen to our phamily once they are married. I could not take it. I kicked him as hard as I could with out making a noise under the table. he let out a small grunt; trying to hold hold back pain. I hated seeing him hurt, but he hurts me on a day to day bases by being with an idiot who did not love him, and just treated him like her puppet. "um...i'll leave you two alone for a while." said raven. she climbed out of the chair, and headed of to the restroom. as she walked away I noticed her answering a phone call, or contacting a loved one, but I brushed it of, and focused my self on brain washed friend... as if it was necessary to call him 'freind' anymore. "phil, stop acting stupid, you know very well that we used to do those childish things!" I whispered furiously, as I tried to hold back tears for about the hundredth time since they've been together I noticed his expression was nothing, but a bored face...no. sorrow...nothing. "dan, let go of the past , and face the fact that i'm growing mature, and i can't stay in contact with you after we exchange our vow's" phil said. my eye's ; a furious crimson red color, and held back tears watering my eye's. "yeah..." i said. i stood from my set, and walked toward the restroom,to reless my tears, and shouts of anger, and disbelief. as i slowly walked i heard a familier histarical giggle, "i love you" i heard. i knew who ever it was raven it was not an i love you, you say to the person that mean's the world to you. i thought it had been phil, stupid thought i know. i walked into the restroom first making sure no body had been in the stalls, by peeking down for foot step's. as soon as i noticed nobody nobody was in the restroom i feel to my knee's. and tear's ran down my cheek's as i sobbed violently making my breathing throb in pain as i breathed in the cold air. how could this happen i wanted to tell him, and pour my feeling's out to him, but i knew i could not stop them. he was going to move out, and have a family while i live alone, and never find somebody like him again. what i had to do was be there for him, and stop being so selfish, and trhat is what i planned to fo that day. i whiped the soaking tears off my fred slushed face. and splashed water from the sink onto my face, as if i was knocking some scense into my self, and seeing reality.
i walked out of the restroom, and walked to out rable only to see them holding each other's hands, and placing sloppy kisses onto each others lips. i nearly barfed from disgust. i slammed my hand's onto the table startling them, making them release from there disgusting kiss. "Where are we going next?!" i asked; spreading a smirk accross my face. "to pick out our cake" said raven. no. more stupid wedding shit we had to do. sometimes i felt like she did all this stuff coz she knew it hurt me, seeing there lives fall perfectly into place step by step.