Loathekit awoke. He stood up and looked around. He felt so alone in this world. Couldn't he just have one person who cared about him? What about someone he could care about? But, no. That was too much for him, and he couldn't find anyone, ever. He yowled in pain.

"Leafstain," he murmured, catching a glimpse of her from across camp. Leafstain gently walked over to him and she looked warmly at him
"Yes..."

"Leafstain, are you alone in this world? Do you have someone you feel comfortable just...loving? If you do, you are so much luckier than me. I haven't had the chance to find someone like that." Loathekit rose his nose up to look at the moon. His head slowly rose until he was bathed in moonlight, looking gorgeous and amazing.

"I don't really have anyone" she said then she licked her black tabby stained pelt till it was glossier than the moon she licked her paw Loathekit brushed his dark gray fur against Leafstain. He immediately leapt backwards. He never showed emotion like that...ever. It scared him so much to show emotion. Being alone was all he had ever known and if that changed now…well, he wouldn't know how to feel about it. He'd just have to keep his distance. Leafstain laughed and licked his dark gray pelt she licked his muzzle and nose. This display of affection frightened Loathekit. But he loved it. He touched his nose to Leafstain's. He began to share tongues with her. He nudged her playfully. He laughed. He had never known what feeling affection for anyone, anyone at all, felt like. Now he did. But he could never be with Leafstain. She was a warrior, he was a kit! Leafstain felt a feeling the same she brushed his nose with tail she licked his ear gently her feathery whiskers and warm breath touching it. Loathekit was shocked that anyone could feel this way. He thought love was just...a word. It could never happen to him. But he was starting to wonder--had it happened? Loathekit brushed his tail against her neck, signaling for her to follow him. He slowly began to walk away. He wasn't sure where he would go, but he wanted to get away somewhere with Leafstain. There, they could talk without all the people in the world that didn't care about him or Leafstain bothering them. She followed thinking
Mousebrain how could you love a kit oh but you do

Quietly, Loathekit stopped and said,

"Is it safe for us to go outside camp? Everyone is in their den. Would you rather stay here, behind some bramble or a rock? I-I'd like to talk to you. You know, get to know you better. I've never felt the same way with anyone else as I feel with you. It's an indescribable feeling. But, I don't know." He suddenly looked at Leafstain long and hard. 

"You are so beautiful," he whispered. He looked up at her. "Umm… You can pick where to go..." "I would like to leave camp I feel the same you are so handsome and sweet" Loathekit glanced around camp. He saw no one. He looked at her. "Umm…You…first I want to make sure you get out safely" He waved his tail toward the exit. He cared about her so much. He'd probably get exiled if anyone in this Clan did something to hurt her. He thought about what he'd do to them...ouch...

"Okay" she said and started walking out of camp looking to make sure Loathekit was safe she would spill rivers of blood to keep him safe Loathekit darted after Leafstain. He was sure no one saw them. He saw hoping no one saw them.

"Hey Leafstain?" he muttered. "Let's keep...this...secret for a while. I mean, well, I don't know. The other cats would think I was a bad kit, and I don't want them thinking that. No telling what other Clans would find out and use against us."

"I know everyone would kill me for loving you" she shuddered
she playfully tackled him she was a small-cat so it was like a young apprentice tackling an older kit she licked his face and she rubbed his belly with her paws Loathekit leaned up and licked her face, very gently. She was so beautiful. He could just get lost in her eyes...

"I don't understand why I love you. I just asked you a simple question. Your answer, it was so simple. Then I knew, I...couldn't explain my feelings for you. But they were just…amazing. I need you." Her amber eyes glowed she gently licked his small face back and caressed his body in her chest
"Me neither I love your presence your standing next to me makes the bad feelings evaporate into mist your amazing I love you I need you "Loathekit stared at Leafstain.

"I-I am shocked that you feel the same. I mean--well, I don't know. I just...I want to be able to love you. But, see, we could never be. ...Could we?" Loathekit's dark gray pelt was washed in early morning light. Cats were surely emerging by now. He was scared now.

"I want to love you so badly" Leafstain said

"I want us to be" she finished "I want there to be us too…but…well, is it possible? Are we allowed to be mates with so many other...err...options, I guess you'd say? I love you too much to let you go." Loathekit ran his tail gently across Leafstain's back. He was shocked that she felt the same way he did. He was so happy!

"I have options" she started

"But I love you" Leafstain purred she gently licked his face Loathekit loudly purred. The fact that she, the beauty of the Clan could ever love him, the...well…kit who had never been favored because of his looks.

"I...we…better go. Before someone catches us, you know? Err--we shouldn't let everyone know about us just yet, do you think?" Loathekit whipped around quickly.

"Oh no," he murmured. "Meet me tonight, right here, at sun-down. At least try. Please. Goodbye. We probably won't see each other much between now and then." Loathekit licked her face gently before hurrying off. "WHAT?" he called grumpily.

"I will" she said and went to camp
Marizpankit ran to him
"Hi..."

"Hey," said Loathekit. "What do you…err...need?" No one ever wanted to associate with him except Leafstain which is why he asked that. "Something wrong?" Marizpankit purred
"I want to prove that you love me to my friends" she said Leafstain was watching them fire in her eyes she growled silently

"What?!" yelped Loathekit. "WHAT are you talking about?" He hissed. He had to make sure he said nothing about Leafstain. What in the name of Star-Clan was going on, though? Love...Marizpankit? Umm, not quite. Should he play along? Or disagree? He moaned quietly. Leafstain walked in looking right at him
"Sister Mom probably wants you" she said trying to hide her anger
Marizpankit shrugged and went into the nursery Loathekit, frightened, looked at Leafstain. He shook his head and headed to the nursery to try to find out what was going on. He snuck through the brambles quietly. Leafstain followed him but to see her mother
Batteredflower croaked a hi to her daughter Loathekit wondered if Batteredflower was alright. She hadn't talked much lately, as he had not noticed before. He sighed. Batteredflower then closed her eyes and rolled limply to her side she was dead Leafstain gasped and touched her mother she felt cold
"No Mother! Please wake up...Please!" Loathekit dashed in. He saw the cat, Batteredflower, who used to take care of him when his mother wanted some relaxation. He gasped. Leafstain was crying hard she tried to wake up her mother she was saying


"Please no Mother wake up!!" Leafstain shivered and cried Loathekit rushed to Leafstain's side.

"Shh…, shh, I'll go get the medicine cat. Calm down now, shush..." Leafstain calmed and she stopped crying but she still licked her mother Loathekit rushed to the den. No medicine cat. He gasped. He ran back to Leafstain.

"I don't know where the medicine cat is." Leafstain was tearing up Loathekit shuffled his paws and licked Leafstain's face. "Calm down now, please please please. It's okay. Shh…" He wondered if other cats were staring. If they were, it didn't matter anymore. All that mattered was making sure that Leafstain was alright. Marizpankit and Sharpmoon both stared with mouths open
Leafstain smiled through her tears and gently lovingly licked Loathekit's face Loathekit brushed his face against Leafstain's. His tail was wrapped around her shoulder to let her know he'd always be there. His baby was so important to him. He looked over at Marizpankit and Sharpmoon. They were astonished. What did it matter anymore? So much for not letting anyone know about them. Sharpmoon bellowed
"What is the meaning of this"