A:N/ Hey. I was bored and started typing. Just a one shot. I don't own wiess or the song. Hope you like it.

I don't want my freedom
There's no reason for living with a broken heart

Yoji looked at the cheap whore hanging on his arm. She smiled up at him. "Hey baby. You know you're really cute when you look at me like that." He didn't answer her, just kissed her to shut her up. He had picked her up at the club, just like he picked up a girl every night. The others called him a slut for it, but listening to them bitch about it was better than living with the pain. That was the only reason he did it. To stop the pain.

This is a tricky situation
I've only got myself to blame
It's just a simple fact of life
It can happen to anyone

He watched as the whore snuck out of the Koneko, trying not to wake the others. He knew they weren't even asleep. When you're afraid that any minute some one's going to come in and kill you, you tend to be a light sleeper, and all the noise she was making there's no way they were asleep. He hated that. He hated that they knew what he did to stop the pain. He always said any enemy of women, but what was he. Yoji hated the fact that he was the very thing he despised. He used women every night to keep from feeling the pain she had caused.

You win - you lose
It's a chance you have to take with love
Oh yeah - I fell in love
And now you say it's over and I'm falling apart

Slowly he got out of the bed and pulled on some pants. He wasn't sure if they were clean or dirty. They had just been slung over the back of his chair. Blinking he looked in the mirror over his dresser. For a moment he didn't recognize the person staring back at him. "Bastard." He muttered, stumbling out of the room. The hallway was empty. It was always empty. Slowly he slipped into the bathroom. "Why?" he asked the empty room. "Why did you leave me Asuka?"

It's a hard life
To be true lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
It's a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another right from the start
When you're in love

Slowly he turned on the water in the shower. Watching the steam rise he slipped out of his pants. When he stepped into the small shower, the water scalded him, but he didn't get out. He didn't even flinch. The physical pain was better than the pain in his chest. Just saying her name hurt now. It hadn't been like that at first. At first he could remember her smiling, and how much he had loved her. Now all he could remember was how he had hurt her. Why couldn't he stop the pain. Even the whores could only stop it for an hour at most. Slowly tears began to trace their way down his cheeks, hidden by the steaming water around him.

I try and mend the broken pieces
I try to fight back the tears
They say it's just a state of mind
But it happens to everyone

"K'so!" He cried, his fist falling against the wall in front of him. He slumped against the wall in front of him, the one that was connected to Aya's bedroom. Not that he cared. Aya was a cold bastard who didn't care about his teammates.
"It won't bring her back." Came a voice from the door. Yoji looked up, but the shower door was closed. Between the steam and the frosted glass he couldn't see which one of the others it was.
"What the hell do you know?" Yoji answered coldly. "She left me, not you."
"I know."
"Aya?"
"It's not your fault, it's not her fault, it's no one's fault."
"Like you know."
"You aren't the only one who's lost." Then the bathroom door closed firmly. Whichever one it was, he was gone.
Yoji leaned against the wall again. "What the fuck do you know about it?"

How it hurts - deep inside
When your love has cut you down to size
Life is tough - on your own
Now I'm waiting for something to fall from the skies
And I'm waiting for love

After a few more minutes, Yoji cut off the water. He still felt filthy from the whore, but he knew that if he scrubbed anymore, they would notice it in the morning. Getting dressed again he left the bathroom. He was about to go back to his own room, when he stopped in front of the door to Aya's room. Pressing one ear up against the door he thought he heard the faint sound of muffled tears.
"It's none of my business." He said, stepping away from the door. Crossing the hall he opened the door to his own room. For what seemed like years he stood, staring into the dark abyss. "Hell." He finally muttered.

Yes it's a hard life
Two lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
It's a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another - right from the start
When you're in love

Aya looked up when he heard the knock on his door. "Go back to bed Omi." He said, masking the pain from his voice.
"I'm not going back until you tell me what the hell is wrong." Yoji said, entering the room. "Who was she?"
"Aya." The younger man said quietly.
Yoji looked at him from the doorway. Then he shut the door and walked over to the redhead's bed. "Asuka."
"Why?"
"Because it's a bitch." The blonde answered, looking away from him. For several minutes they sat in silence, neither one looking at the other.
"She left me." Aya finally whispered. "She didn't even say good-bye. None of them did."
"I know." Yoji replied. "She loves you and leaves you. And when she's gone you wish you'd never been born."
"Is that why?" Aya said.
Yoji looked at him. "Yeah. That's why. It's better than hurting all the time."
"Teach me."
"What?"
"Teach me how to make it stop."

It's a hard life
In a world that's filled with sorrow
There are people searching for love in ev'ry way
It's a long hard fight
But I'll always live for tomorrow
I'll look back on myself and say I did it for love
Yes I did it for love - for love - oh I did it for love

Yoji looked over at the redhead lying naked beside him on the bed. "What did you mean earlier. When you said that I'm not the only one who's lost?"
Aya looked at him. "My whole family is dead. All I feel is pain. I know you're the same."
Yoji looked down, then back into the other man's eyes. "How?"
"Not sure." Aya said, frowning. "I just did."
Yoji studied the person behind him. Once again they were quiet, just lying in each other's embrace. After a while Yoji started to get up to go to his own room, but stopped when Aya clutched his arm. "Why?" he asked. But Aya was fast asleep. Shrugging he lay back down. Just be for he drifted off to sleep he leaned over and kissed his lover's forehead. "It doesn't hurt anymore." He whispered in awe. Then sleep claimed him.

A:N/ Well, there it is. Read and review. Like I said, I hope you like it. It's my first serious yaoi so be kind.