A/N:I know everyone's doing it, but I couldn't resist. What if Jen had written Gibbs a letter? Here's my take. It's set 10 years post JD and will probably be the only not JD denial fic I will ever write because Jenny was by far one of my favorite characters ever.
Forever and Always
Dear Jethro,
I'm dying though you already know that. If you're reading this, I'm already dead. There are so many things that I could tell you right now. I'm sorry, I'm too sorry for this letter to convey. Things could have been different for us. When I look back, I realize I never should have left you on that stupid plane, but I had my damn five-point plan. Jethro I've always loved you not a moment went by that I didn't miss you
Sometimes when I'm alone in my study I'll think about all of the "what ifs." What if I hadn't left? Would I be ex-wife number three, or would we have settled down. Would we have kids? What if I wasn't dying? Would I be able to make it, all of this, right between us. What if we had never met? Would I be having these regrets about someone else.
That first night when I told you no off the job, I was lying—very poorly. There was nothing I wanted more than to be part of your life again.
I know that it won't make a difference now, but I can't help but wish I'd made different choices. Maybe it's the fact that death is so imminent on my horizons. I've evens started going to church again when I can. It's pitiful a last ditch attempt to make right I suppose.
I'm rambling I know I am. I just hope that when I'm six feet under you'll remember me as the Jenny you fell in love with, not the shriveled shell I'll be when this disease is done with me. Please Jethro for both our sakes don't blame yourself, or I will haunt you.
Yours Forever and Always,
Jenny
He folded the worn letter gently, placing it back in the box that housed the flag that had been on her coffin, and continued packing. Ten years was a long time to still miss someone so much.
A/N: OK so for those of you who didn't get it Gibbs is packing up his house because he retired. While packing he sees the box( probably an old hat box) and opens it and reads her letter (again). It says the letter is worn because he's read it so many times.
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