Hey this is my first fanfic so please be nice! I hope you like it, I just spent three hours planning the entire thing out; which includes the plot, chapters, ect. Not to mention it took me another 45 minutes to a half an hour to write the first chapter! Now I did my part, and I'm asking everyone who enjoyed this for my first fic to please read & review! Thanks, I'm planning on continuing with this piece because I like it so much! Enjoy! ~ xXUnbreakablexFaithXx
Disclaimer: I am not Erin Hunter, thus I don't own any of this obviously!
The early dawn light lit the sky, beaming gloriously across the horizon. The pale, milky pre-dawn colors where now replaced with the new lively, golden rays that brought together a sense of peace, it was the certain type of glorious sight that almost fools you into believing everything, for only one moment so, will be okay in the world. It brings on a sort of sense that your paws are walking the right path and are heading in the right direction. The sight of a new dawn is almost like the sign that it is a new starting to your life, although this could also signal the starting to the end.
I'm Leafpool. I was the ThunderClan medicine cat apprentice and I did at one point think that my paws where chasing my destiny. But no, no cat could have been as wrong as I was. It most certainly was not my destiny. My eyes glowed with warmth as I gazed at my true destiny walking beside me. My true destiny was a sight that almost, as I was sure, could forever capture my breath and take my life away in one single pur. My heart danced rapidly to the beat of love stirring in my chest at his sight. His name is Crowfeather. He is my mate. My destiny. The thing that my old life was forbidden to have.
My old life was ruled by a strict code. As a medicine cat I was not to have a mate or any sort of loving, affectionate relationship with a tom. Especially one that comes from another clan. Oh no, that was certainly something our ancestors just wouldn't allow. But how can I let a clan of dead cats not allow me a good life and a destiny? Sure it offered the medicine cat roll but there is something more greater than that. This something was more greater than the air I breathed in with each passing moment. It was Crowfeather. He was handsome without a doubt. He was tall and thin, he had that smoky black pelt color and deep blue eyes that I couldn't stop myself from getting lost in. But most importantly, I loved him for his personality. It was who he was.
My first thoughts of him were always so mean, he was grouchy and snappy toward me for almost no reason at all. It wasn't until later when he saved my life that I realized his reasons were because he loved me and didn't want to lose me like he lost his old love, Feathertail. He also knew, just like him and Feathertail, that we were from completely different clans and forbidden relationships never worked. He was wrong. Now I'd finaly have the chance to prove him that this was going to work out better than he expected. We'd start a new life, we'd chase new dreams and goals, but most importantly we'd start a family. I was determined to have his kits and be the wonder mate and mother to his kits that he had always dreamed and wished for.
Though most would see Crowfeather as a tough, bitter cat it was only because they couldn't see the cat he truly was. They couldn't see the warm heart that rests inside of him like I did. They just couldn't see his affection that he only showed to the ones he loved the most and the deepest. I am that cat. I own that bond with him. No other cat will, no not never. No cat from his clan could give him what I offered, thus same going for me. Never in my life will I ever find his equal, nor I doubt he could find mine either. Though I wasn't as special as he was, I was sure.
I sighed inwardly. StarClan had been the one thing that I trusted, I set my paws on their path, and I promised them my life. And now I knew I was wrong. In my point of view they were cruel, how could they not grant me the one thing I lived for? Shaking the thought off my mind I gazed at the strong tom cat walking beside me. I brushed my side up against his and purred. Crowfeather twined his tail with mine yet did not meet my eyes. I found this action sort of cold so I pressed further into his thoughts.
"What are you thinking about?" I softly mewed, my amber eyes gazing at him in utter warmth. I had left every single piece of my life that I held so dear and loved oh so very much behind. All except for him.
He sighed and narrowed his eyes, looking forward refusing them from flickering over to me, "I- I just don't know if we're doing the right thing." He meowed, and in that sudden moment he had sounded rather distant and unsure, "I mean. Last night I knew we needed to turn back to our clans but we didn't. I loved you way to much to do that. But by going on don't you realize we're leaving everything behind? The ones we loved, and StarClan. And if we leave StarClan behind we also leave away the warrior code and the ones who have passed away that we so dearly wanted to meet up with again in the after life." He stated looking guiltily to his paws.
Struck with discomfort and hurt I gazed sadly down to my paws. I knew with the last remark his mind was set on one thing, Feathertail. This choked me up and hit me to the core. "You aren't over her are you?" I whispered trying to hide the pain.
Crowfeather allowed his eyes to flicker in my direction for a moment, obviously through guilt, and then they led back to his paws. "It's not that." His mew was full of warry, "It's that, well I did love her. I wanted to see her again, I wanted to let her know that by being in love with you I wasn't betraying her. I wanted her forgiveness. Now I'll never know if I had that."
My eyes led back to his face that was staring directly ahead as we walked, "Don't you see Crowfeather? She loved you so much! And they say that true love is letting go, letting the one your in love with find peace and happiness." I meowed making myself sounding as convincing as possible, " And if that means her watching as you and me start a life then it is so. She doesn't forgive you, because there was nothing you did wrong in the first place that needed forgiveness. In her heart, watching you be whole, is what in the end she wanted to see. You're finally allowing her to rest in peace."
His dark blue eyes gazed warmly into the depths of mine. It seemed we were froze like this forever, or at least I wished it could be so, though it was only one mere simple moment. But these moments seemed to be the base of the relationship. It was what made our relationship last as two cats from separate clans. Those moments could only be labeled as one thing, love. And love it was only. "I hope you're right." He murmured as we walked once more in search of new territory.
In the most assuring voice I could manage, after all I just experienced my heart stop as he gazed into my eyes, I said, "Yes of course. If you were in StarClan and Feathertail was the one alive wouldn't you want her to find happiness instead of morning bitterly over you all her life? Wouldn't you selflessly want that for her?" I finished wisely choosing my words.
He gave me no response at first, then after a moment or two of waiting he did, "Yes, of course. I just can't help but to feel the never ending guilt that embeds itself into my being." His voice was faint and intertwined with the slightest hint of melon collie.
The sound of his voice was so beautiful and the words spoken directly from within. Whoever knew that I could fall in love with the cat I once thought of as an enemy? It was so unreal, but the unreal part of it was the part that made oh so very real. It strengthened everything that bound us together. My only reply was to purr. I was lost for words to reply to the handsome cat standing beside me. Embarrassment burned my ears slightly, he knew I was completely, absolutely head over heels for him and I couldn't control myself near him.
He murrowed with laughter slightly at me, I was so incredibly weak at hiding my emotions for him when he was right beside me. He purred too. One of the things he almost never did unless he meant it. He twined our tails even tighter together and pressed his body close to mine, "Leafpool, I'm no good for you. You deserve way better." His attractive voice mewed in my ear.
"That's not true," I mewed back, "And I could say the very same to you." I whispered.
He did nothing but give the slightest of a sigh and we walked in silence once more, I enjoyed every bit of it as we went in search of our new home. This sealed my fate. I was never returning to ThunderClan, and he was never returning to WindClan. We now started the rest of our lives together as we walked on in total peace. And for the first time in the longest, I felt whole inside.
Sorry this chapter was so short! I promise longer ones in the near future! So now, please review once you have finished reading!