Chapter 1

To much to handle

I sat on Tom's couch. Thinking. Was this really what I wanted? I shook myself mentally. I would probably have eternity with Embry and I was worrying about missing part of a year with him. Tom sat down heavily next to me.

'I need your help.' oh great, here we go.

'What with?' I asked, hoping it was a Superman v Spiderman question. I don't think I could cope with any more worries or relationship problems.

'I think I'm doing the wrong thing. I think I'm dating my 'Lois Lane's' sister instead of my 'Lois Lane'.' Oh crap, I thought I knew what was coming.

'I don't love Carrey. She's changed. She's no longer the kind little cheerleader she was. Now she is obsessed with money, clothes and status. I just don't know her any more.'

'Then the only kind things is to let her go. Don't string her along. Tell 'Lois' how you feel and join Yahoo Answers.'

'What?'

'I don't think I can shoulder anybody else's burdens or make your love life's decisions any longer.'

'Um. Ok. I'm sorry, I didn't realise how…'

'How much strain I was under? That doesn't even begin to cover it. You know what happened.'

'So things aren't going well with Embry?'

'Embry and I are fine. It's everything else. If it were just the two of us we'd be fine.'

'Can't you try and change the rest. I mean, make it easier for yourselves?'

'We're working on it.'

'It's almost been two years now…'

'Either shut up or go to hell.' I growled, well he should know better.

I left Tom before Carrey returned and sat in a Starbucks around the corner. To be totally honest I was almost enjoying normal problems. I felt bad for being short with Tom, it really wasn't him I was mad at. I would make it up to him later, after being Carrey's shoulder to cry on. There was a shop around the corner that sold good ice-cream and a Blockbuster next door. We'd watch Sci-fi like when we were kids and I'd leave to make us hot chocolate when I thought he was going to cry to preserve his dignity. If he did, which I doubted.

About fifteen minutes later I get a babbling phone call from Carrey, I got her to meet me and I bought her a coffee.

'How could he?' she sobbed.

'I don't know.'

'Yes you do. Don't lie to me.' she almost snarled.

'I'm sorry but…'

'But WHAT?' she was yelling. I started to panic.

'But I can't tell you. The two of you need to discuss this.'

'Do you love him?'

'Pardon?'

'Do you love him.'

'He's like my brother, of course I do.'

'I think he loves you.'

'I don't.' oh crap. Why me, why? As if my life wasn't bad enough my best friend who is a human may have fallen in love with me. Then, thank the lord, my phone rang.

'I'm sorry, I've gotta go.' I took my leave, answering the phone as I left.

'Hey. You won't believe what happened…'

'Jacob needs to talk to you.'

'What no hi? Why can't he phone me?'

'Hi, sorry, but we have pack obligations and we need you home…'

'No. Embry I love you but I'm sick of this. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm sick of being a superhero. I just need a break.'

'Ok.'

'Really?'

'Yes. Now what did you want to talk about?' I couldn't believe it was that easy. He was fine with it. So I told him everything. He listened intently but seemed a little distracted. When I was finished talking he let out a triumphant 'Yes.'

'What?' I asked, curious.

'I have just booked us a holiday.'

'Where?'

'Inverness, Scotland. For Christmas.' and I burst into tears. He'd found a solution to most of my problems. Unless it made things worse.

Then it hit me. I had to face my family. Crap.