if kurt were to sing a song before he came out to his father, i feel like this song would kind of show what he may have been thinking. Even if he knows that his father is a good guy, he's still a little nervous to see what his father would actually say.
Before Kurt came out to his father after the football game, he hadn't been sure of what his father would think of him being gay. As he looks into his mirror at his vanity, he starts to sing.
Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect groom
Or a perfect son
Can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
He starts to think that he'll disappoint his father and crush all the dreams his father had for him.
Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself
I would break my fam'ly's heart
He thinks that if he were to show himself to the world and to his family, it would make his father feel like he didn't raise his son to be this person.
Who is that boy I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know?
As he looks in the mirror, he doesn't really see what he's always seen. It's as if, now that he truly knows his sexuality, he sees himself differently. He's afraid of how his father would see him or even the kids in school. They already think he's gay, but if he actually admits, that yes, he is gay, the bullying would get much worse and he doesn't know if he'll always be able to deal with it.
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
He keeps wondering if what he sees, will change once he tell his father and his friends, that he is one hundred percent gay.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
He finishes the song as he stares at the mirror and mentally tells himself that he should admit the truth soon, in hopes that he won't have to worry for a long time.
hope the song and story line fit together well, let me know what you think and thank you to everyone who has read my story or any of my other stories.