Hey!This is my first fanfic and I have little experience at writing so if you have any tips or constructive criticism, please do review and tell me what you thought.I will try to update as much (and as quickly) as possible but I do have school until 6 plus hours of homework!

I may do this in multiple POVs but I don't know at the moment it's in Katniss' POV.

Hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer-Suzanne Collins created all these amazing characters.

TAD

"Fine, I'll go first anyway." He leans down and rips the bandage off his leg, eliminating the final barrier between his blood and the earth.

"No, you can't kill yourself,"As I jump down to replaster his already crimson leg, Peeta reaches down.I think he is going to stop me but instead he picks up a nightlock berry that must have fallen out of my pouch. Before I can stop him he says,

"I have always loved you and always will. Live happily enough for both of us."

He kisses me and eats the nightlock. He immediately falls down clutching his throat and despite me trying to get it out, and dies a minute later. I start to sob when I hear the cannon.

"Ladies and gentlemen! May I present to you the victor of the 74th annual hunger games, Katniss Everdeen!"

A ladder drops down from the hovercraft but I don't want to leave Peeta. I lie on top of him sobbing until somebody comes down and I feel and sharp jab in my back and then everything goes black.

When I wake up at first I don't know where I am but then I remember Peeta and start sobbing again. I can't believe his ever reliable hand isn't here for me to hold, his comforting words to calm me down. At first I guess it was an act but I realize that I really did care about him. I'm not saying that I loved him cause I don't know. Maybe I did a little. I think I loved him in a best friend kind-of-way. I guess I'll never know.

Then I think of Gale. I can't wait to see him. I think I love him. I didn't really think about it in the games because I didn't know I would ever see him again. I'll have to talk to him about this cause I know he'll be jealous because of Peeta, but he'll understand. I guess I'll also have to wait awhile to tell people because I was supposed to be in love with Peeta.

When I try to get out of bed I see that I have a black band around my waist

After having been sobbing for about 10 minutes I get knocked out by a tube in my arm.

This process happens for a few days except the red headed avox girl sometime comes into the room to give me some food.

When I wake up the next time the band is gone so I get out of bed and get ready to go see Haymitch. That's when I realise that I am naked. I see with shock that the burn on my calf is nonexistent and the scars not only from the arena but also accumulated from years of hunting are gone! I run my hands through my silky hair and freeze when I hear rustling! From my left ear! I can't believe they reconstructed it but then, why not? They've got tons of technology.

I find the clothes I wore in the games and flinch. I grit my teeth and put them on, knowing that I need to wear them to see Cinna.

When I walk out the sliding wall that I noticed the avox girl go out of last time she brought me food, I hear,

"Katniss?" Effie!

I run to the voice and surprise everyone, including myself, by launching myself into Haymitch's arms.

"Nice job sweetheart. "I don't even scowl at him.

Then I hug Cinna and Effie. I want to talk to Cinna alone but don't know how to say so without offending Effie. I know Haymitch wouldn't care. Cinna seems to understand an says,

"Come on Katniss. We need to make you look presentable."

I follow him as he leads me into a room of the side of the corridor.

Once we get in I immediately burst into tears.

"I miss Peeta so much! I think I loved him a bit but I think that I also love Gale so I don't know who I love! It's my fault he's dead!" I sob

"It's okay. You're going to go home see Prim, your mother and Gale and a few days with the cameras around and then you'll have your whole life to decide. It's not your fault he's dead" He soothes

"It is my fault! He killed himself for me!"

"It's not your fault Katniss."

After I've calmed down Flavius, Venia and Octavia come in and 'remake' me.

Cinna puts me in a beautiful candle-like frock that shimmers when I move.

As if in no time it is time for the interview. Just before it Haymitch whispers to me,

"Pretend you're still in love with him."

"Let's welcome our victor of the 74th annual hunger games! Katniss Everdeen, the girl on fire!"

"Thank you Caesar." I reply. All I can think is, stay calm, stay calm.

"So Katniss, how did you find the games?"

"They were fine when I had Peeta by my side." Everyone sighed at this.

I answer all the question in this fashion until he asked,

"I know this is a hard question to ask but what was going through your mind in those last few moments?"

"I just wanted both of us to live. I shouldn't have let him kill himself." My voice wavers at this

After that the recap of the games is shown. I try to block it out but I can't once Cato's cannon fires. When I see Peeta die I try not to cry but I let out a few silent tears. I'm not going to give the Capitol any more than that that.

Then President Snow comes forward and places a crown on top of my head.

"Well done, Miss Everdeen." He smells horribly of roses and blood.

Once Haymitch guides me to my bed he calms me down, (something I didn't know he could), and then leaves me to sleep. Surprisingly I find sleep immediately but it is disturbed with nightmares of the arena. When I wake up sweating and shaking I decide I won't (and don't want to) go back to sleep.

I go out to breakfast even though it's 6 in the morning and am surprised to see Haymitch.

I'm about to ask why he's up so early when he says,

"President Snow wants to talk to you." He says angrily.

"Why? I haven't done anything." Surely a talk with President Snow can't be good.

"I don't know. Just be civil."

"Okay. When does he want to see me?"

"He said as soon as possible so eat something and then I'll take you."

"I don't want anything at the moment."

"Okay then, sweetheart. If you're sure."

"Yeah. Let's just get this over with."

We get driven to the President's mansion and I can't help but gasp. It's massive. We are guided through halls and corridors with crystal chandeliers and regal carpets.

"You can wait here." The man leading us says authoritatively to Haymitch. "You can go in, Miss Everdeen."

I walk into Snow's office.

"Why hello Miss Everdeen."

"Hello, President." I try to sound calm.

"Please sit down." His slimy voice commands.

I sit down as he says,

"As you know, a lot of the victors, especially the favored ones, spend a lot of time in the capitol." I nod my head, not trusting myself to speak. "Well, I have a deal with them. I own their body. I am able to sell it to whomever I please. And in return, they keep their family. I purpose to offer the same bargain."

Refusal jumps to my lips but he shuts it down by triumphantly saying,

"What a shame it would be, if your friend Gale fell into the electrified fence. Or say, if your sister suddenly became clumsy while holding a knife. Or if your mother drank something a bit off."

I see what he is getting at and accept defeat.

"I'm sure that we can come to an arrangement."

"Excellent. Your first appointment is in a week. Apparently you are popular. I will call or send you a letter nearer the time. If you are unsatisfactory to any of my clients someone in your family may tragically pass away." He leaves this to sink in. "Do not tell anyone and tell your family not to read your letters. You may go now. If anyone finds out Gale might be involved in a mining accident."

I hurry out and usher Haymitch out the building.

Once we get on the train I really begin to sob.

"Hey what's the matter?" Although he seems to already know.

I hug him and whisper in his ear,

"Not here."

He waits for an hour then asks for a break so he can get some fresh air. I accompany him out and tell him everything.

"I thought this might happen."

"Did this happen to you?"

"No. When I was in the arena I used the force field against another tribute to win and when I came back all my family were gone. This does happen to quite a few victors from 1 and happened to Johanna Mason for a bit until she refused. She doesn't have a family anymore. But it seems that you and Finnick Odair are the most popular. I'm sorry this happened to you"

"I'm sorry for your family."

"Don't worry sweetheart. They're probably happier dead."

"But my first one is in a week!" I say, hysteria rising. "What do I do?"

"I don't know. I never did this. Talk to Finnick on your victory tour."

We are called back inside and I go straight to my car not wanting to see anyone.

Thanks for reading, once again please review if you have any suggestions,

TAD