why can't you love me? i come to your house every time you call, yet you still kick me out. every time someone breaks your heart, i am the one to put all the pieces back for you. yet, i mean nothing. i take the pain, i know that you only hurt me because inside you hurt. i never asked for anything. not once did i ask you hold me. not once did i ask you to stop. but now, i want you to love me. but you laugh in my face. "no one can ever love you. all you want is the sex." but you're wrong. i don't care if you never touch me again, and i fear you won't. so here i am, sitting on this cliff. writing this stupid letter that you will never see. tell me Axel, was i just a play thing? did you really never love me? i guess i will never know. it doesn't matter. now you will never have to see me again.
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and i jumped.