Feelings. You'd have to be demon to be not able to feel anything; pain, agony, loneliness, happiness and love. Of course for people to have a reason for these "feelings" something has to happen.
And sometimes it's not good. It can be traumatic.
A month. It has been a month since it happened. A month since her future self died right in her arms and she did nothing but just sit there, frozen as she was facing the back of her right hand in front of her future self, the pink guild mark showing proudly. She could hear buzzing around her as if someone was screaming, she briefly glanced up and saw Natsu Dragneel, her best friend, engaging future Rogue to a battle, she noticed he was talki- yelling at her
"...out of here, Lucy! Get out of here now! I can handle this!" Natsu was now screaming at her, tears streaming down his face and he had a furious glint in his eyes similar to what happened during the fantasia incident.
Suddenly her eyes were becoming blurry and she scratched it quickly and looking at it if she had debris in her eyes, but it was only water.
'Tears?' Lucy Heartfilia, Celestial Mage, thought. Why didn't she notice? Was she too focused on Natsu to pay attention to anything else? It scared her.
Because she didn't feel anything.
She never told anyone about it. Never told anyone about her problem because she was scared that they were going to criticize her, and if she weren't going to be careful there was always a chance they were going to leave her, just like her mother, father, Michelle and her future self. She never wanted to be alone again, even if it meant to keep this secret to herself, and never tell anyone. Not even her best friend.
"Luce, we're going to go on a job." Natsu grinned as he saw her enter through the guild doors. He was sitting near the doors so that he was the one who got to greet her and the one who she saw first. Happy was sitting on the bar counter as he munched on a fish, though Gray was nowhere to be seen.
"Well, good morning to you too, Natsu." The mage replied tiredly. "What job are we going to go on?" She yawned and rubbed her eyes.
Natsu suddenly narrowed his eyes at her.
"There is a group of bandits that needed to be captured after wreaking havoc in a village near Crocus." Erza informed. "You okay, Lucy? You look tired, did you sleep well last night?" Erza was worried now, Lucy always looked her best. She always wore her favorite (and most revealing clothes) in the most inappropriate of moments but at least she looked well-kept then.
"Yeah yeah, just that I spent all night last night trying to finish my novel but I got so carried away I didn't think it was so late." 'Lies' Her inner voice whispered. She spent all night in the bathroom, slitting numerous cuts on her wrist and watching the blood drip down onto the cold, white tile.
"Why do you smell like that?" Natsu growled.
"Smell like what?" Lucy asked nervously. 'He couldn't have..'
"WHY DO YOU SMELL LIKE BLOOD?! WHO HURT YOU?! I'LL HUNT THEM DOWN!" Natsu roared and slammed his down on the table, catching the attention of anyone who was present at the guild.
'Please don't look here, please don't, no, please, no no no no.' So many negative scenarios in her head. The guild finding out about her psychotic hobby and getting mad. Master Makarov kicking her out of the guild. Team Natsu looking at her with disgust visible in their eyes. The guild leaving her. Erza, Gray and Happy walking away from her. And the most heartbreaking of it was, Natsu turning his back on her, never to be in her life ever again. 'No! It hasn't happened yet and if you don't think about an acceptable excuse to tell everyone then you must as well tell them the truth.'
She snapped out of it and looked around her, everyone was awaiting her answer. Some looked at her in worried stares, angry glares at the thought of the person who could have possibly done this to her and helpless looks because they couldn't help her.
"I-I can e-explain.." Lucy was stuttering now. 'Think of something. Anything!'
"I don't understand. You smell blood on her Natsu? Lucy is this true? Is this why you look so tired? Who is this scoundrel and I shall seek retribution for what he did to you!" Erza had that look in her eye that if anyone were to speak even a word out of place she would cut down the distraction immediately.
"I-I am on m-my p-period." She was stuttering now. "That is most likely the reason why Natsu smells blood on me." She said with a little more confidence.
Erza stopped her muttering about "seeking retribution" and such and blushed a light pink.
"O-Oh I see. Hmm, Forgive me for my incompetence for not listening to you full explanation. As punishment, please punch me." Erza closed her eyes as if she was expecting it.
"No! It's okay, it was my fault that I didn't explain faster." Lucy sneaked a glance at Natsu. He looked like he was confused and uncertain. Then she looked at the guild and the tension in the room suddenly gone replaced by relieved sighs. It wasn't long before there was another brawl as Gray came in and accidentally Elfman hit his head on the door as he was going out, Natsu didn't think twice about joining and forgot everything about the commotion he caused.
Lucy smiled as everything went back to normal. Then she dropped her smile.
'I have to be careful around the Dragon Slayers.'
Hi. This is my first time writing a story so please be kind to me, though comments that may help improve this story are always welcome. Thank you.