The last twelve years

A.N.: This is a story about Lily and Snape's relationship, inspired by the last five years. I will try to tell their story, by changing the lyrics of the last five years and the same way of telling the story.
I don't own the last five years nor the music. I don't own Harry Potter either, I write for fun.

Chapter 1: Still hurting

Severus Snape

I had no idea how much years passed by since I and Lily met. All I thought about were the final moments I had known with her. It was autumn, the leaves fell from the trees. I watched the funeral from a distance. I wanted to blame everyone for what happened to Lily, yet I knew there was no one but me to blame.
Petunia wasn't there, the only one I knew at the funeral was Remus Lupin. I could see his eyes were blood red. I knew mine had the same colour. Every day I had to live with the mistakes I made. Mistakes that caused me to lose everything. Maybe if I hadn't made those mistakes, Lily would still be alive today.

I watched how they put her coffin in the earth. I walked away, I wanted to ignore this reality. I wanted to believe that Lily was still alive, that she didn't want to talk to me. That was better than reality. When I arrived home, I locked myself in the library. I hoped that a comforting book would help. I don't know how long I stayed there. Days…

As I stared out of the window, thinking about everything me and Lily went through.

Lily is over

Lily is gone

Lily was murdered by Voldemort

Lily had so much she wanted to do

And I'm still grieving

Lily had come to the end of her life

I tried everything for her to survive

There was nothing that I wouldn't do

And I still failed

What about loyalty?

What about the promises he made?

What about that Albus?

What about that?

Lily was sure she could trust Sirius

Lily decided to choose him over all

Lily has a baby that still survived

And I'm still grieving

No

Don't trust them with Harry

Run and find someone better

Go

And give the boy a family

A fine one

One that cares

One that's right

Give me one day more

Bring her back to me

So I can try

Anything

To save her

To save what we were

Lily is over

And where can I turn?

Covered in guilt

I really did earn

Maybe there's something more out there

That would not change I lost her

That would not speed the time

One our friendship was broken

And I'm still grieving

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