Chapter One: Lies

"We need to stop," I said as I stared at Miroku. Miroku backed away from me and gave me the look that no one can read, even myself. Then a small smirk formed on his lips.

"You're kidding right? Why do we need to stop what we're doing? Is it because of your new lover?" he asked sarcastically as he tried to pull me back into his arms. I stepped away from him and crossed my arms over my chest as I leaned against my car. We were both outside of his apartment.

"I'm serious Miroku. I dont want to keep seeing each other like the way we have been doing. It isn't right," I tried to explain. This time it was Miroku to cross his arms over his chest. He searched in my eyes as if the answer would show. I took a deep breath and let it out slow. I do not know why I am extremely nervous. He was the one that broke up with me over the summer. I am nothing to him, but only as a friend. For some reason, he's been attached to me ever since.

"I am serious too. Why do you want to stop having sex with me? Is it because you're already fucking Inuyasha?" he asked again. I could tell he was already starting to get angry. I looked away from him. He was my best friend, and only my best friend. What he wanted was to get back with me, but only just recently he finally confessed to me that he was still in love with Sango. I can not be with a guy who is in love with someone else. I do not share. Either he is mine, and only mine, or he can choose to be with me or someone else. Miroku thinks he can have both, but not anymore. I am tired of playing along with his games.

"I'm not already fucking Inuyasha. I just dont want to continue what we have. I wanted to kiss him the other night, but I didnt because of you," I lied. Miroku balled up his hands into fists. I reached for my keys and unlocked my car.

"Kagome, you better leave before I do something I may or may not regret. Now," he demanded. I gave no second thought as I got in my car and drove off. As I glanced back in the rearview mirror, I saw Miroku punch the window to his car. I couldn't tell if he broke his window, but I didnt care. I just wanted to leave, I need to tell Inuyasha the truth about me and Miroku. I am so scared, and ashamed. How could I hurt Inuyasha? He trusted me, and I shattered his trust. He is going to hate me...

~~Later that day~~

"Why the hell did you lie to me?" exclaimed Inuyasha. I could not look at him. I did not want to see the hurt and anger in his eyes. I was too ashamed to look at him, even though he does deserve the explanation, and for me too look at him, but I can't. Inuyasha got out of my car and walked towards his. I expected him to drive off, but I noticed in the rearview mirror that he kept kicking the tire of his car over and over. A few minutes later, he got back in my car and waited for an explanation. I hunched over as I felt him staring at me with so much anger.

"Well? Why did you fuck him? Am I not good enough for you? Am I not good enough for anyone?" he yelled. I glanced over and saw his hands were clenched into fists.

"I am so sorry Inuyasha," I whispered. Hot tears streamed down my face. The back of my throat began to burn as I tried to hold back more tears. Inuyasha grabbed both of my hands in his and made me look at him. I struggled to get my hands free, but he tightened his grip on them.

"Look at me. Now," he demanded. I shook my head. The visions of me and Miroku the other night kept flashing in my head. Glampses of the mistake I have done. I wish I could go back to that day and stop myself before making that mistake. The night I was with Inuyasha was the most amazing night he and I have ever had. He did not give me sex, but something much better. Intimacy. I felt him loosened his grip on my hands. I took the courage to look at him, and I wish I haven't. Inuyasha was in so much hurt and anger that he too was crying. I wanted to wipe those tears away, but I dont know if he wants me to touch him.

"Tell me. Why did you fuck him?" he asked again. I searched through his eyes. I kept going back to my head, thinking of the best explanation. I can not tell him that I enjoyed it. Not because it was with Miroku, but the sex. I can not hurt him more than he already is. The night with Miroku I do regret. It felt wrong to be with Miroku, in his arms. So wrong, but I could not stop myself. I cheated on Inuyasha, the guy I am falling for, with my ex Miroku, who treats me like I'm just some girl to have on the notch of his belt. Miroku thought having sex with me would keep me around after months when we have broken up, but he was wrong. Miroku vowed to never be my friend because I have chosen to be with Inuyasha.

"I dont know why I did it, Inuyasha. It just happened. It felt so wrong," I cried. More hot tears streamed down my face. Inuyasha shook his head and punched his side of the door.

"Nothing just happens. Everything happens for a reason. Do not lie to me Kagome because I do not want that right now, or I will leave you and never talk to you again," Inuyasha said. I want to tell him that I did not want it to happen. I've told Miroku I dont know how many times for me and him not to have sex anymore, but he would not listen. He thought it was a joke. The more I think about it, the more I began to get angry at him and myself. I know Kagome could see me getting angry.

"Why the hell are you angry?" he asked. I separated myself from him and got out of the car. It was my turn to punch and kick my car. Inuyasha dashed got out of the car and rushed up next to me.

"Don't touch me! You have no idea how angry I am at myself for fucking up one of the best things that has ever happened to me in a long time. And you know what I do? I mess it up by sleeping with my ex who has treated me the worst out of anyone!" I exclaimed. I ignored the tears that kept rolling down my face as I continued to hit my car. Inuyasha hesitated before he wrapped his arms around me and tried to stop me from hitting my car. I did not want him touching me. I feel ashamed and disgusted with myself. I wanted to crawl out of my skin and hide under a rock.

"Kagome, please calm down," he whispered into my ear. I tried to calm down, but I couldnt. I did stop hitting my car, but I wanted out of his arms, as much as I really wanted to be held. I turned around in his arms and wrapped my arms around him, wanting to hold on to him instead, and to never let go.

"I am so sorry Inuyasha. If you give me another chance, I will never, ever hurt you again. Just please...dont leave me. I didnt want to have sex with him. I dont want to be with him, I want to be with you. I dont know why I did it, and I regret it so much," I cried. Inuyasha held me like I was a child scared to lose someone very important. He continued to whisper for me to calm down, and that he knows I never wanted to hurt him.

"I dont want you seeing or talking to him anymore. Ok? Can you do that for me Kagome?" he asked. I looked up at him and hoped that he could see how much I would do anything for him. No matter how long it took to regain his trust, I will stay with him.

"I promise Inuyasha," I vowed.