A/N: My first ever written fanfic dated February 9th of the year 2009. (er..I actually wrote this in a old notebook) I wrote this multi chapter fanfic with all the love and appreciation from one of my favorite fanfic couple, Daidouji Tomoyo and Hiiragizawa Eriol. I just love the both of them, in my own opinion both of their personality suit each other,,(kya! Moe moe..) ehem.. I hope everyone world appreciate and like this . This is so special to me. Please review this after. Arigatou gozaimasu..! ^_^ *bows head*
Disclaimer: I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura or any of their characters. All thanks and praises for Clamp.
Now on with the fanfic story.. hajime!
First chapter: " For the last time.. "
Brief summary: They both realized that their marriage was all a big mistake. Divorcing their marriage were the only option left. What would happen next? Read on please..
"We should end this now. Those 2 years of sadness must end now." Tomoyo stated as she face him both eyes directly at him. She wanted to say words that would not make it painful and rude to him. She never wanted to hurt him, for the last time.
"There's no other choice but for us to end this marriage, it will never gonna work. " she added with modesty and calmness in every word that came from her lips.
Eriol just eyed her with such sincere eyes and slowly sighed.
" I certainly agree with you things are not going well for the both of us. I' m afraid that we should just end this marriage." He said still looking at her, not shifting his gaze from her. "
" We were not able to attain happiness for the past two years, if we continue this relationship we would just end up hurting ourselves rather than resolving the conflicts that we both have. " he added.
Silence filled the air.
And suddenly she shifted her gaze to her side, opposite from where she could sight him.
" I'll have my lawyer arrange everything. It will probably not long enough to settle all this. We already have a mutual decision; I guess it is more than enough. " she said while looking outside the beautiful scenery from the large window. Not attempting to look back at him.
" That's already fine with me. I would also talk to my legal counselor about this matter. " He said while a sound of a clock ringing was heard, reverberating.
"We should probably take some rest now. It will be a long day tomorrow. " he said while slowly exiting himself from the door, his hands now on the door knob.
" I will sleep in the guest room. I'll pack my things tonight and by tomorrow morning I'll go to my house." he added while slowly turning the knob to open the door.
" Good night then. " she said.
" Good night." He replied and suddenly the door closed.
Tomoyo stood still. Not moving any muscle in her body. Both her eyes looking outside at the window, her eyes gazing at the night sky. She doesn't feel any guilt or sadness. Nor happiness from what had just happened.
" Weird. " Was the only word that came out from her. Sadness has not touched her heart. Her whole being was fine with it. No regrets.
He opened the door of the guest room. Slowly he came in. The whole room was lighted by the moon outside the window. He did not mind opening the lights anymore. He slump himself on the bed. Facing the ceiling both eyes pinned there.
Strange. Weird. That's what he is feeling right now. An unfamiliar emotion starts to grow within him. It is neither satisfaction nor guilt. He just feels fine.
Slowly he had the urge to close his eyes. His body and breathing suddenly became relaxed. And then he started to dream. It was a good dream, he smiled.
Tomoyo woke up early than the usual. She didn't fell asleep that night, it never became an option. She spend the night looking at the moon outside her bedroom window, alone. All in her thoughts that tomorrow is going to be a new day for her.
After putting some light make up on she hastily changed her night dress to her everyday clothes. Due to the fact that she woke up early and can never go back to sleep. She must spend her early morning hours with proper use. A sudden idea came upon her mind.
She already knew what she has to do at the moment. She hurriedly walked at the small hallway just a few corners from her bedroom. A big door can be seen at the end. She began to trace the hallway and when she got to the door she suddenly stop. Looking at the wooden structure an urge to open the door came to her. Slowly she turned the knob, it open.
A certain someone surprised her upon opening the door.
Eriol was in there holding a book in his hand.
" You're early.." he said.
" Hai, I can't sleep last night.." She said while slowly entering the room filled with lots and lots of books.
" You're early as well.." she said while slowly walking through a shelf abundant with books that was carefully organized. Her hands slowly caressing ever piece of it.
" I had to, there are a lot of things that I should carefully organize. " he said while slowly putting the book in his hands right back to its shelf.
" I definitely agree with that. " she said while slowly turning her head to look at him. There gazes met.
" Including half of the books here in this library it would probably take you a whole day to organize. Don't worry I'll just have these books delivered to your house" she added with a smile on her lips.
" Thank you very much I most certainly appreciate that.." he said while slowly walking to her.
Now both of them facing each other a sudden silence filled the cold morning air.
" Tomoyo.." he said with a most gentle tone and slowly held her right hand.
" Hai.." she replied looking at the hand that was holding her and back to his face.
" Tomoyo.. I just wanted to thank you for everything for the very last time.." he said with humbleness, utmost care and appreciation with each and every word.
Tomoyo just stood still looking at him, listening to him, for the last time.
"Even we had a lot of conflicts and arguments in the past 2 years of our marriage still I can remember delightful and cheerful moments that we had spend and shared together… And those moments are precious and memorable and most certainly are the best.." he added while he slowly caress Tomoyo's hand, ' Such soft hands ' he thought.
Tomoyo was startled by his sudden move, but keeping that aside all that she can feel right now was nothing but utmost care and gratefulness from Eriol which made her feel happy and delighted as well.
He placed her hands on his chest just on top of the place where his heart is.
" I'm sorry for not being a good husband that I knew you had dreamed of. And most of all thank you for staying by my side in those moments which I felt empty and lonely. Your patience, concern and understanding I appreciate them all. And lastly, for just being there was certainly what I needed.. " he continued with his hand on her hand. And from there all that he saw from her was abundant sadness. He can tell that she at any moment now will cry but knowing her, he knew that she would never gonna show it to him.
She felt numbness from her body. Suddenly she was speechless. She never expected such words from him. A sudden urge to cry from this moment came into her. She composed herself. She never wanted Eriol to feel guilty about their situation now. She can't cry in front of him, not now. She smiled.
His eyes suddenly widen. He saw it. A smile was now being seen on her lips. He felt hurt.
Suddenly she speaks.
" Eriol.. I should be the one to say that. I should be the one to thank you. You became the most understanding and supportive husband I had ever had. You were there in times that I felt useless.."
Suddenly she stops.
She breathed. It is starting to be painful to her. She never wanted a perfect husband. All that she wanted was to be loved at the first place. And Eriol had already done it in those 2 years. She was loved.
She continued. And now surely without stopping. She can do it, she can say it. For the last time.
" You loved me. You cared for me. All those things that you have done for me. I appreciate it. Those words of compliment, admiration. For saying that I'm beautiful and strong.. " she said while grabbing Eriol's hands placing it as well in her heart.
" Thank you for being there.. Thank you for being a good husband.." she added.
Sadness suddenly lingered the air.
Painful. Agonizing. Silence conquered the whole room.
Eriol cupped Tomoyo's cheeks with his free hand. He caressed it. The soft and pinkish cheeks of the woman he fell in love with since high school.
" You deserve to be happy. A beautiful and endearing lady like you really deserve it. I would truly be happy to see you with that person someday in the future. You are should be loved and cared.." he said still holding her with care and respect.
His words, those words that came to him. Tomoyo knew it already. The time has come. A time for farewell.
" Same for you.. You really deserve happiness. You had experienced sadness for a very long time. I would also be happy to see you with a woman you truly deserve. A woman who would love, care and most importantly the one who could end up your loneliness. You're a lovable person Eriol " She said and suddenly a warm droplet of water flowed through her eyes, in her pinkish cheeks.
She cried, silently.
He wiped it with his hands. He felt sad for her, for them. There relationship started smoothly and suddenly it ended up hurting both of them inside.
Slowly he held her chin delicately and placed a light and soft kiss on her pink lips, Tears flowed from her eyes.
She heard a car engine starting. She looked outside the window. She saw his car moved its way to the gate. She didn't look away. For the last time, she pinned her eyes to the parting car outside.
The gate closed. It banged.
And suddenly she felt her eyes crying for him, for the last time.
^_^ OWARI…!
A/N: Wow!... Was the only thing that I can say for now. I gave my whole heart and soul for this. This story had so much revisions already.. hehe.. I really wanted to improve my skills. Anyway I'm sorry for the imperfections. I know that my grammar and spellings are not quite good, but I tried. (quite a short chapter..ne?)I made it with a lot of sad emotions. I truly wanted you guys to cry for them. I cried.
This story still has a long journey to take.. 5 chapters was the only limit. I knew some of you would get bored if I would make it longer,,hehe..
I can't say any spoilers.. Because the next chapter will be a blast..!
Sore ja minna.. Tsuzuku ne..
P.S.
Please review, no flames please.. Spare me..
Gotta park my pen..for now..
With love,
AIHSATAN ELLIMAC.