You Mean Nothing To Me Chapter 1, a twilight fanfic

BPOV

Dear Dad,

I can't believe it. How did this happen? How could my life disappear in a matter of seconds? How could five words make my life a living hell? He was my life. He was the reason for my existence. He was my everything. He was my love.

But now, he's the reason for my pain. He's the cause of my life of hell. He's why friends have left me, why you look at me with disappointment every single day, why I'm classified as an outcast, and why I am about to end my life.

No one would care if I died right now. I know that everybody would just love if I left this world. They would enjoy if my existence was forever gone and I didn't cause any wrong to this small town. I thought back to every time that he told me he loved me. There was countless times where I heard him say it. Now, I realize it was all a lie.

Would he have left me if he really loved me?

Would he have broken my heart if he really loved me?

Would he have driven me to the thoughts of suicide if he really loved me?

I don't think he would have. Those words were just lies. They didn't have any emotion to it. He just kept stringing me along. I was at my highest point of happiness, and then he threw those words in my face. He watched me fall. He knew the pain he was causing to my fragile heart. He was the first person I opened my heart to, and he broke it.

I want to tell you that I love you. And please do the following for me if the Cullens come back.

Tell Alice that she is the greatest friend I could ever have, she has made me feel better about myself, I consider her my sister, and that I love her.

Tell Emmett that he is the big brother I never had, he always cheered me up, helped me whenever I was down, and I love him.

Tell Jasper that although we never really talked, he was an important part in my life and I also love him.

Tell Rosalie that even though she didn't like me before, she is still my sister and I love her.

Tell Carlisle and Esme that they have been very good to me in the past and they are basically my second parents. Tell them I love them.

Tell Edward that…..he always made me feel special. He was what convinced me to continue living in Forks. He was the reason for my existence and now, the reason for my death. His words kept flashing through my mind when he left.

"You mean nothing to me."

I shall not tell you to tell him I love him. I did at one point, but after what he did, I will never love him again.

If you are in pain, he is to blame.

If you want to look for me, go to La Push beach. I'm sure the water will wash me onto the shore at one point. I love you, Dad.

Your daughter,

Bella Swan.