Disclaimer: don't own GG or anything related to it .
Rating:PG13?
Spoilers: Everything up to 3x22 :)
Summary: Season 4 fic, first few chapters mostly Nate's POV
Days of absence,
sad and dreary,
Clothed in sorrow's dark array,
Days of absence, I am weary;
She I love is far away.
~Jean-Jacques Rousseau
There she stood a figure in my doorway, a hood covering her face to shield her from the rain to protect her from the prying eyes who drove her away. The moonlight was illuminating her delicate face. No one was to know she was here. No words were said just the touch of her cold fingers to my jaw , eyes closing relishing the tenderness. She was gone so long, a cruel dream induced by my drunken state, like so many times before. A look of pleading in my eyes, so many words i want to say but i remain speechless, she raises her head to take me in one last time a single tear running down her cheek so pale. I beg to hear her voice, say any word something to tell me this is real, any word but the one she whispers so faintly ' goodbye' .
Months later, I lay in my bed, surveying the empty space next to me, my company for the night, Alice or Felicity, what ever her name was had chosen to depart. Glancing at the clock I stumbled to find something thy would satisfy the grumbling in my stomach, a half drunken stagger to the kitchen, finding only scribbles of digits on a canary post it. Reading it I smile and place it in the trash, noticing the buzzing of my cell phone, five new messages, i'd taken to not reading them, they all said the same things conveying worry, what was there to worry about? well at this message was slightly different, a college party at NYU. I didn't go much to class preferring to spend my days frequenting the many gentleman's establishments in the city, but anywhere that had the promise of free alcohol would be fine with me, I think as i find that half full bottle of single malt sitting on the coffee table, drowning away the memories of that evening, the regrets that i carry, and the haunting of her face which will remain until she comes back, if she comes back...