Prologue
I do it not because I'm sad, not because it feels good, because I'm truly happy and it stings and burns. I do it not because my parents hate me or because they abuse me, because they love and care for me deeply and do everything they can to love me. I do it not because I don't have friends, not because I'm sad, not because I'm bullied, because none of that is true. I do it because life is boring. Life is the same thing over and over again. This is my way of showing hope and longing for something more interesting to happen. My hope and longing for something more in life.