This is based off of a dream I had that completely freaked me out...because the dream was told in first person, making me Scofield. In this, though, Scofield will just be in first person, and the names of real people in my life will be changed to the character's names that they were based off of. I hope you enjoy this very strange poem I have to offer!
The river flows steadily down into a dam
I gaze, longing for freedom.
The Fox River seeps into my mind.
I am in a new prison,
Again
Mahone stands in a corner, wondering where he'll get his next fix
And I see kids
All ages
Being put to work as slaves for the horrid guards.
Those kids
Huddle together against the harsh Illinois cold
No shoes
No sweaters
In this outdoor prison
I want to break out more than anything
But there is no possible way of escape.
Lechero is here
Hunting for little kids to torture
I walk and stare at every nook and cranny
For a weakness I can't find
Lechero strolls up to me
Takes my shoes
Says " You won't need these,"
And the Chicago wind blows in from the west
Alone, I stare so hard at the electrified fence
Guarding me from the icy river
Wanting to jump
Escape
"Breakout!"
Prisoner children race to the fences, getting a glimpse of the eight escapees running toward the road
They cheer them on
Except one
Who tells me
"They do this every week...foolish kids thinking they can be like Michael Scofield and escape from anything,"
A pit forms in my stomach
As a blond guard points her gun at the fleeing kids.
I want to scream
But then the shots ring out as their bodies crumple into
Children heeps
Like robots, the rest of the prisoners go back to pointless busy work
I shake uncontrollably
As a prisoner named Whistler roams in my mind
He's here
Wanting more
Wanting another escape
But how can I give it when countless mothers lose their own children?
How much more suffering can I stand?
Whistler walks up to me, once again in the rags of prisoner's clothes
" When are we doing it?"
" Tonight," I say. " After the prisoner parade."
" You know what you need to do?"
" Yes."
" Well then do it."
I am in a prisoner marching band
Playing an instrument that only makes unintelligible shrieks
Twisting in and out of formation
The kids yell at us to stay in line or else
"The guards will kill ya."
Bleachers pop out of the sky, showing crazy people wearing threads of red and black
How long can this go on?
If only I had more time...
Darkness
I slip on a roof of a house
Somehow
I am gone from the banks of the Fox River
I stop to catch ragged breaths
As I gaze around
Whistler is gone
And I stand where my old grandparents live
The ones who didn't care enough
To stop the abuse
And stayed in their suburban house
Barely lit with the morning's glow
The house invites me in
Come
We have cookies
Don't be afraid
I scramble down the side of the house
Delirious
And insane
While sirens float in and out of consciousness
Wary of passerby
I hide in the shadows
Thick as a blanket
I hear the clicking of a typewriter
To find it is a fax machine sitting on the porch steps
Is this some sort of joke?
Am I dreaming?
Or is that really a message from Whistler...
Quickly I run
Sorry we lost contact
Meet me at the airport
I have tickets
All you need to do is
A car slowly drives by
Gazing at me
I dive into the shrubs of cover
While tearing off the first part of the fax
Heart beating so fast that it could make a song
But nothing is wrong
The sirens have ceased
For now
I rip the other part of the message from the machine...
Ride
I'm sure we'll be happy together
Give me a chance
It's our hiding place
Just you and me
Forever
Whistler
My eyes light with anger
Wasn't he the one who threatened me to break out
And now he wants to be friends?
A tear runs down my face
But what if he isn't lying
And wants to love me, when others can't?
When can I stop running
Stop looking behind me at every noise I hear
Is there an answer?
I walk into that house
Where my grandparents reside
As I open the door
Sunlight streams into an old fashioned kitchen
Beads of morning warming my heart
There they are
Granpa, reading the morning paper
And Granma, laughing at his poor jokes
My heart leaps as I spy Linc eating a bowl of cereal, calm as the wind before a storm
How did he know?
But the air turns cold
As I step into the room where I don't belong
Always the same old pretty, as T-Bag would say
I stir things up
Granpa stares in shock
His paper hanging off the table ready to fall
Linc looks relieved
But he isn't making a move
What has happened?
Why does he stare at me like that
Not talking
Not breathing
I glance at the T.V showing my picture
Again
Whistler's picture fading into the background
As I gulp down terror
Granma bites her lip
Anxious
I wonder if this was a good place to go
I wonder if they will turn me in
But Granma walks up to me
And holds me
While I sob
Into her shoulder
Finally letting go all the sorrow that I had to
Bury
So I could run again
She comforts me
But as I see the sun rise, my panic has caught up to me
And I tear out of her arms
" I have to go," I say
The air fills with my granma's evil laugh
"Go where? You are safe here, and only here."
Speechless, I glance at her evil face
Insane
I guess it runs in the family
I knew I couldn't stay
No matter how much I wanted
A home
I couldn't
"This is the first place they'd look!" I scream. " Don't you see? I need to hide...somewhere else..."
"And where'd that be, huh?" Granma yells. " You were pathetic at hiding then, and you still are now."
I was running
From him
Grabbed my leg
Hurled me to the ground
"I've got you, little Michael," he whispered in my ear
Alchohol breath in my mind
Granpa dug his hands into my flesh
Ripping out whatever I loved
And Granma screamed " You loser! Why can't you hide like a normal kid?
I cried like a baby, knowing that one day I would die like this
In pain
Forever
And from that day on
I could never love
" Not even Sara," I whispered
Granma cackled. " Not even your precious Sara can save you this time Michael."
I slumped against the wall. " Maybe I could go to a hotel..."
"A trap, of course," she laughs
"And so is this...this is a trap if I ever saw a bigger one...or maybe the woods across the street..."
"A horrible idea! You'll be all alone in that place..."
I gasp for air
It seems harder to breath these days
"But you left me all alone when you took me to Social Services, and when I went to Fox River you didn't even care! And Sona..."
I hold back ferocious tears
"And now you won't let me go because I'll be alone? Times have changed; you can't make up for what you did to me!"
And then I remember
Meet me at the airport
Just you and me
Forever
" Whistler has tickets...for a plane...We can escape for good."
Granma flips with rage
Emotional
Can't tell if she's mad
Or weeping in distress
" But you won't be safe!"
I grasp her hand, calming the rush of air between us
"But I'll be alive."
Granma silently sobs, nodding reluctantly.
"You don't know what it's like Granma...to live in constant fear of losing your life. Let me go; I can do better out there than here."
A flash of blue and red lights flickers in my eye
Sirens fill the air
Whining
Warning
Running
Granma looks out the window, into the rising sun
Linc pleads with me silently
Leave. Now. Just go.
I give the faintest nod to Linc
As the sirens grow louder
More omnious
Granma
Tears streaming down her face
Whispers the word we've all come to fear
That haunts us
No matter where we go
It follows
A stalker mumbling in the distance
"Run."
