Get out alive
By: D.G. Hayes
Hi! First ever fic for this pairing, for xigdem day 2010! Xigbar day sucked, my DS got fried by puke and my best friend now looks like an idiot. But, this fic is based off of the song 'get out alive' by three days grace. I was reading the lyrics and I came up with the Idea ^.^
ME NO OWN KINGDOM HEARTS.
May contain spoilers.
WARNING: Yaoi! Guy on guy porn! ADULT CONTENT. MILD GORE.
"Kingdom hearts, blah blah blah…" Was all Demyx heard out of Xemnas's mouth during the middle of the meeting. God, these things were such a drag. All the superior ever talked about was 'kingdom hearts'. They all knew about it, and didn't need constant info on it's progress. If it got any bigger, everyone noticed. He felt bad for Roxas and Xion, always out killing heartless like the organization's little lap dogs.
He mindlessly looked around the nearly blinding white room, the only color coming from the black cloaks and strange hair colors of his fellow members. The styles weren't all that normal either, especially Saix and Larxene's. His was spiked in the strangest way, and hers… Made her look like a cockroach. A very pissed-off cockroach at that. He gazed at everyone, wondering about their weird hair. Maybe it was different when they were their real selves, Demyx knew that as Myde he'd had the same dirty-blond mullet, just a little bit longer in the back. Then, his eyes fell on Axel.
Axel.
The man who claimed to 'love' him, regardless of whether he had a heart or not. And while he himself strongly believed they all had hearts, sometimes…. Sometimes, he didn't believe himself. They had been seeing each other almost since Demyx had joined, only months after the redhead. But when Axel had threatened to kill him if he ever left, things changed for Demyx. He just wasn't the Axel he'd known in his first days in the organization.
Which brought him to Xigbar.
Lately the older man had been staring at him during meetings, and Demyx tried his hardest to pretend they were meaningless. But then he found himself staring back.
He was so scared that he'd actually developed feelings for the freeshooter, and Axel's death threat hung in his mind every time he looked into the man's yellow eye. Axel had changed recently, ever since Roxas had joined. He had been a lot more abusive towards him, and didn't say a word after they had sex. He was opening up to everyone else. But, it seemed he had taken a liking to the younger boy.
This didn't make Demyx jealous, not at all. If he left him for Roxas, that was fine. All he wanted was for the pyro to be happy. But, Axel didn't show any signs of leaving him soon. In fact, it was almost like he was behaving that way so Demyx would leave, almost like he wanted to do away with him. So, for almost a month Demyx endured the torture waiting for Axel to snap, and leave him for Roxas.
Which never happened.
Demyx was sure he would break under any more abuse, and wanted to stop feeling so insecure and nervous while around Xigbar. He just didn't know what to do. Even his sitar, and the occasional chatter with the Cheshire cat while on a mission in wonderland didn't do much to help him at the moment. He was at a crossroads. Either tell Xigbar how he felt, and take his chances, or continue to wait until Axel finally caved.
He continued to sit in his tall white chair after everybody left. He kicked his feet like a small child, lost in thought. He was startled when he heard a voice from beneath him.
"Hey kiddo! What're you up to?" He looked down, and saw Xigbar staring up at him from the white floor. Demyx felt his cheeks flush a little, and smiled weakly.
"Oh nothing, I'm just… thinking is all." He said, jumping down from his seat and landing next to the older man. Xigbar raised an eyebrow.
"Oh? What'cha been thinking about?" The freeshooter questioned, giving the usual smirk that showed sharp white teeth.
"Just… Stuff y'know? I've been thinking a lot lately, about a lot of things…" Demyx replied, trailing off at the end.
"Oh really?" Xigbar questioned. "I guess I have too then." He said. Demyx cocked his head to the side in that innocent way of his. Regardless of how dirty Axel made him, he still appeared sweet and innocent to the rest of the world.
"Well, what have you been thinking about?" Demyx asked him, looking up into the cat-like eye of his superior. He sometimes wondered what had happened to the other, and what could lie beneath the black fabric of the eye patch.
"Y'know, things." He paused for a moment. "Like… You, for example." Xigbar said, and before Demyx could reply he was pinned to the base of the nearest chair. His supposedly non-existent heart pounded furiously against his ribcage, noticing Xigbar's face was only inches from his.
"I've been thinking about you, and those screams I hear every night, coming from Axel's room." He said, keeping his gaze locked with Demyx's. "I know the rest of the castle can hear them too, and they're not like the ones that come out of Zexion's, or Saix's rooms every night. You're in pain Demyx. I can see so many scars and marks from what you have revealed, and I can only imagine what's underneath." He stopped, and Demyx couldn't bring himself to look away. "Why do you let him do this to you Demyx? He hates you, we all know he's got it for Roxas now." Then, Demyx finally responded.
"I am in pain, but I can't just go and leave Axel. He said he'd kill me if I ever did, and I don't understand why he won't just leave me for Roxas…" Demyx murmured.
"Demyx, we both know I can be better than him." Xigbar said, closing the distance between them with a kiss. The melodious nocturne quickly kissed back, letting out a whimper as Xigbar invaded his mouth. The kiss was passionate, yet sympathetic at the same time. Axel had never kissed him like this, not once. It had always been full of animalistic lust, and sometimes it could be painful. The two finally pulled apart, gasping for breath.
After a moment Demyx realized the situation at hand, and panicked. He hurriedly threw open a portal and left, leaving a confused Xigbar standing at the base of the ninth tallest chair in the white room.
…
Demyx could feel his heart pounding in his chest as he landed on his bed. He didn't know what to do. The kiss had been so wonderful, unlike anything Demyx had ever experienced, even while he had been Myde. But Axel would do away with him in an instant if he found out. 'What if he finds out? What if he SAW?' All of the 'What if's' ran through his head as he felt hot tears stream down his face.
Nobodies weren't supposed to cry, how could something with no heart be so sad? Yet he had seen so many of them so it, even the almighty superior Xemnas, who had broken down when Saix had barely managed to stay alive after a fierce battle. He ordered the melodious nocturne to never tell anyone, especially Saix, who had been out cold at the time.
Demyx gasped as he heard his door creak open. It was Axel. He had a look of false surprise on his face as he saw Demyx laying on his bed with tears still in his eyes.
"Demyx, baby what's wrong?" He asked. The worried tone in his voice false, Just like it had been for the longest time it seemed. He sat down next to him, placing an arm on his burned and scratched shoulder.
"It's nothing…" The dirty blond murmured, looking away. He couldn't bring himself to look into those green eyes, not after what had happened between him and Xigbar only moments before.
"I was too rough again wasn't I?" Axel asked, placing a lust-filled kiss upon the nocturne's lips. Like all the others, it was animalistic and driven by instinct and lust. Demyx was pushed against the mattress, being stripped of his clothing in seconds. Underneath were numerous scars and burns, all caused by the same man.
Axel thrust into him dry, and Demyx nearly screamed as he felt himself being torn from the inside. He whimpered and screamed as he was scratched, torn and burned.
By the end of it all, the sheets were black and red, covered in burns and Demyx's blood. He began to cry again as Axel left, leaving his pitiful form there without a word.
Demyx could hardly keep his eyes open as he heard some one open a portal inside his room, and an all too familiar voice yelling his name. All he could manage before he totally blacked out were these words:
"Xigbar…Help me…..please……." Then, all was gone.
So, did you like it? I've never written anything like this before, so please give me your opinion! All I ask is for one review, and I'll update.