What Now?
I sat here in the dark behind the motel, legs curled up to my chest, thinking. Thinking about everything that has happened. From my mothers death, to us still being on the run.
Simon and Derek got their dad back, Chloe got her aunt back. But me? Nothing. Not that losing some things was bad, but it would have been nice to keep at least some family.
I heard movement beside me and turned my head to see Chloe sitting down next to me. Since having to spend so much time around them, Chloe, Derek, and Simon weren't too bad. Chloe wasn't just a little annoying blonde anymore, I accepted the grunts and looks I got from Derek, and hell, I could even tolerate Simon... most of the time.
"I'm sorry about your mom," Chloe said.
I gave her a short, bitter laugh. "Why? She was an evil, murdering bitch."
I knew she was. I had admitted that to myself a long time ago. But saying those words to someone else made it hurt just a little but more.
"But she was your evil, murdering bitch,"
She was right. She was mine.
I gave a choked a laugh and nodded my head trying to hide the tears that I knew were coming. Chloe moved closer to me and I tensed.
Even though I usually don't like sympathy or being close to Chloe, I relaxed and leaned against her. Because it was nice to have someone to talk to. Even if it was Chloe.
So I sat there, leaning against Chloe, and I cried. I didn't make a sound for fear of anyone seeing me cry. Weakness was not a card I chose to play... ever.
"Hey," I heard a deep voice say. "I thought I-"
I lifted my head and wiped my eyes to see Derek standing by the corner of the building.
Of course, he didn't say anything when he noticed me.
"Sorry," he mumbled and started to walk away before I stopped him.
He and Chloe needed time together and I knew that. I also knew that I was tired of crying and I didn't want to be around Derek anyway.
"That's okay," I said as I rose to my feet. "My pity session is over. You can have her now."
I walked away and gave them the space they wanted. I didn't want to give it to them. But I did. I still wanted a shoulder to cry on but there was no way in hell it would be Simon. So I just settled for sucking it up and heading back to the room