I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget him
But he could try
I tried to save you, Ciel, I really did.
I whirled around at the sound of your scream, so filled with pain. There, illuminated briefly by the lightning, I saw you with a knife through your chest. You reached for me, trying to call my name. I was the last thing you ever saw.
There were just too many of them. I'm so sorry I failed you.
I screamed your name. The sound of your body hitting the ground was sickening. I rushed to where you lay, knowing in my mind, but denying in my heart, that you were dead.
You trusted me with your life, and I had to watch you die.
I looked up at the sound of laughter. They were laughing! They killed you and laughed about it! I lost control. With rage and despair fueling me, I transformed and killed them all. I couldn't have stopped myself if I wanted too.
Young master, forgive me.
The last one fell as it started to rain. I kneeled beside you, and closed your lifeless eyes. I gathered you in my arms like I had done so many times before, and stoop up. Thunder boomed from above as the rain fell ever harder.
It's my fault you died.
I let the tears fall while I slowly made my way home. I called your name so many times, but you never answered. Ciel Phantomhive, My young master, don't leave me. Please.
Did you know, Ciel? Did you know I would have done anything for you, contract or no contract? That I would have gladly thrown myself into death's arms in your place?
Did you know that I need you? that I love you? I wish I had told you.
Bocchan, come back. I'm sorry.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...
I have nothing really to say about this. It's my first yaoi fic. I'm not really into that stuff, but I kept getting requests for it. I'm decently happy with it, except I think it was rushed. The song used in the beginning and the end is My Chemical Romance- Ghost of you. I would recommend that you listen to the entire song.
The pic is not mine, It was made by paje-chan on deviantart, and full credit for the pic goes to her.
Just to clarify, the words in italics (excluding the song lyrics) are a flashback of the night Ciel died. The bold words are Sebastian's thoughts while he's thinking about the flashback.