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Well I'm finally back! I decided to do something other than Kingdom Hearts this time as I was afraid that all of my stories would be identical! But never fear! You don't actually have to have read/watched FAKE in order to understand my story. It's pretty simple. Anyways...
NOTE: I don't own FAKE or any of its characters and the song at the beginning of this chapter is 'Hide & Seek' by Imogen Heap. Plus this story had shounen ai - boys kissing boys! Don't say I didn't warn you!
Enjoy!
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Chapter 1 - Sinking feeling
x Dee's Pov x
Where are we?
What the hell, is going on?
The dust has only just, begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet.
Sinking, Feeling.
Sleeping on the cold hard floor was bad enough. But sleeping on the cold hard floor listening to the breathing of a man I could never call my own, no matter how much I wanted to, was just pure torture. I lay awake, imagining as always what it would be like to hold him in my arms. To show him what it felt like to be loved. I listened to his every movement, as he tossed and turned. I heard music through the open window. I felt tears fall down my cheeks as the emotion of the words washed over me. But I never let myself cry. Yet now, I was here, crying. Just because of some crappy love song and the overwhelming feeling of eternal loneliness. I gazed out of the window, praying that tomorrow would be better. Who knows? Maybe something would happen...
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Of all the things, I need to say,
The most meaningful of which, I can never say,
Hold me, Embrace me.
People don't see feelings.
My eyes fall as rivers make their steady way,
Writing in a daze, not knowing what is coming next.
Like each moment with you.
A pleasant surprise.
Pleasure. Is with you.
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x Dee's Pov x
I awoke with a sharp pain in my back. It was my own fault. I had been forced to sleep on the floor after Bikky spilt milk all over the sofa. Ryo got the bed as it was his apartment, and I didn't want to leave him. So I was stuck without a mattress or cushion. But it was worth it to see him sleeping. So peacefully. So gracefully. Not even the music through the window could disturb his deep slumber and innocent dreams. I wanted to watch him wake up, but I couldn't. The only sign Ryo ever showed to signify his waking; was the slow opening of his eyes. I couldn't see his eyes from where I was lying. I could only see the curved outline of his delicate body underneath his sheets. I could hear his slow and gentle breathing and I saw his chest rise and fall. He was so angelic. But what a wasted opportunity. He was so close to me. Worse even; he was half naked and in a bed close to me, but still I could not touch him. I was scared of how he'd react. I just wished he'd give me one sign... any sign of his feelings towards me. Then I could show him what real love meant. And maybe... I could find out myself too. I was sure I loved him. But I wasn't sure what love was. I thought I had loved once before. But that didn't last. But this was different. This time, I knew I loved him. I knew because of how I felt around him. Not just that hormonal excitement you get when you're fifteen; but real genuine feelings of deep devotion. Wanting so much to spend every moment with him that nothing else mattered. To be with him in a lovers embrace until the end of time. Then I wouldn't be afraid anymore. I'd have nothing to be afraid of. I'd be O.K. if I just knew that he loved me. My life would be manageable - there would be no wondering which day I was going to try and kill myself next. Because finally... I'd have something to live for.
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x Carol's Pov x
"Oh let me get that for you!" As I bent down to reach my fallen bag, I saw a handsome boy looking back at me. We both reached for the bag but missed, as our hands clumsily collided. I blushed as I took the bag and stood back up. I looked at the boy, wondering if I should say something. "You kay now?"
"Yeh thanks." I tried not to blush as I looked at my shoes. There was something about this boy I really liked. More than anyone I'd liked before. This boy was different. "I haven't seen you before. You in year 9?" My mind went blank at the sudden sound of his voice, and I struggled to remember the answer to an obvious question. At last I answered,
"No. Year 11."
"Wow you're old!" He laughed. The feeling of excitement in my heart stopped, and I could feel that ever familiar pain of rejection once more.
"I'm not that old! Only two years older than you! That's not much..." I tried to hide my sadness with anger. This only made things worse.
"Erm... yeh I spose... Um... Look I've gotta go... I'll see you around, kay..." And he left me. Standing alone with nothing but the pain in my heart and the tears in my eyes.
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Not as long as I'd like it to have been, but the next chapter will be longer I promise! Review?
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