Amnesia
Disclaimer: YGO not mine
Ryou POV
You said that you were the darkness and yet here I am in the dark and you are no where. The others find it of no use to fill me in about any thing; they just look at me and think it is okay to leave me behind. It's not fun to have temporary amnesia. Though sometimes I think they're the ones who've had it…if only about me. So many times they've left me behind and they said they were my friends.
I remember, in England, I would end up leaving my friends behind in hospital beds after I've had my amnesia spells. I was so scared at the time, so much that I was willing to run away just to save others. My amnesia got me hated and I didn't know why. I cried only to myself, Father doesn't like tears. Neither did Mother or Ayame but they at least tried to help me. But those two are gone now, my soul and my sanity. My mother was my world; it was always her that would help me with all my problems big or small. She held together our little family. Of course Ayame, she always made me smile even when she pouted for not getting her way. Mother said that we were more like twins, Ayame and I liked that idea a lot. When they went away…I felt so dead.
Father…whenever I cried around him he'd hit me to really give me a reason to cry. I wish I couldn't cry it's caused me so much pain. You didn't like me crying either did you Bakura? No, you didn't, you hit me too. I could handle that, I really could. But I couldn't handle you hurting my friends, the people who meant so much to me. I didn't care that I ended up dying…I actually miss that feeling. The feeling of not having to care anymore, knowing that you wouldn't be hurt. It was welcomed almost I suppose.
My thoughts wander a lot don't they? So do my friends. They've got to go to America, lucky them. I've always wanted to go. They didn't even invite me to go; they invited Honda and Anzu, two non-duelers who couldn't even help out much I bet. I could've helped; but I guess they didn't want anymore problems. I guess that's all I really am to them, a problem that needs looking over. It's not fair really it's not.
I think people like causing me so much mental pain. I feel pretty worthless even more so than before. At least back then my purpose was to be Bakura's host. I suppose that's better than being forgotten. It is better right? Thinking about it all hurts but right now…they're out having fun forgetting about me. I'm just right here doing nothing but thinking. I wish I had amnesia, totally not knowing is the closest thing to death I guess.