I Wish…
Wind is blowing down the quiet river,
A shining road to carry you along,
Oh baby boy, my love will last forever,
If you're to live,
I must give you up to God.
It was a beautiful day, but Alexandra Red Eagle
hardly noticed. She only half-heard the gurgling of the Rampoon River beside
her as it flowed through the canyons of the reservation. All her attention
was focused on the small bundle in her arms.
"My son," she whispered sadly. "There is so
much I wish I could say to you, my child. But you're so young- you'd never
understand. I can only hope that you won't hate me as you grow, and that
someday you will understand why I do what I do."
I know our God will guide, protect and keep you,
Teach you faith and lead you by the heart,
And though your mother's heart is broken by your leaving,
Our Father knows,
Just who he is and who you are.
A shadow fell across the seated pair, and Alex
looked up to see a falcon swooping overhead. She smiled slightly. Sam had
told her when the twins were born that Tommy, the younger of the pair,
would be guided in life by a falcon spirit. Hopefully this was a sign that
he would be all right.
David had already gone- Sam Trueheart had
promised to raise the boy as his own, and she trusted the ancient shaman
with more than her life. In only a few minutes, Sam would be back to take
Tommy away as well, to find him a new family somewhere else, somewhere
far from both mother and brother.
I wish that life wasn't always ending up this way,
With Heaven's love, it's taking Hell to pay,
But you in God's loving plan might be the missing part.
You must live,
So I give you to his heart.
Not for the first time, Alex wondered what
she had done to find herself in this situation once again, losing the people
she cared about most. But that was a silly question- after all, she knew,
didn't she? A one-night stand with a handsome man had resulted in the pregnancy,
and then the nightmares began. When she had sought Sam's advice, he told
her that the father was an evil man, and would one day return to claim
his children. However, the boys had a far greater destiny to fulfill, and
the only way to do that was to give them up, separate them, so that their
father could never find them again.
Alex raged at the idea, but at the same time,
she knew it was necessary. And every time her courage faltered, all she
had to do was look into the eyes of her sons to know she must go on.
Wind that blows you down the silent river,
A shining road that leaves me all alone.
A life for you is worth losing you forever,
Someday we'll stand
In God's fair land, forever home.
"It's time, Alex." A quiet voice intruded on
the mother's thoughts, and she looked up to see Sam Trueheart standing
before her. Nodding, she rose slowly to her feet.
"Goodbye, my little falcon," she whispered.
"I love you." Then she handed the baby to Sam, who took the precious burden
gently. Little Tommy suddenly stirred, caramel eyes opening to see who
was before him. Upon seeing Sam, he smiled, a brilliant expression capable
of melting any heart.
"Come, little one," Sam told the month-old
child. "We have a journey to prepare for."
Alex took half a step forward. "Sam- can you
tell me how they'll be?"
The old man smiled. "Of course, Alexandra.
They will be handsome and strong, noble young men indeed. David will be
a shaman of the first rank." Sam's expression grew thoughtful as he regarded
the child in his arms. "A hard road lies ahead of you, young Thomas," he
said quietly. "Fear and pain await, attacking from all sides. But you will
find those who love you, who will make your battles theirs, and together
you will stand against the darkness."
"Will- will I see them again?" Alex asked,
her heart in her throat.
"You will, Alexandra, I promise. When the
time comes, you will once again see your sons." With that, the elderly
man turned and walked back the way he had come, heading for his truck.
Left behind, Alexandra watched the water flow by for a long time.
I wish that life wasn't always ending up this way,
With Heaven's love, it's taking Hell to pay,
But you in God's loving plan might be the missing part.
You must live,
So I give you to his heart.
The End