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I got to say when I first heard this song it was like a drug for me and I think it sums the whole Tony and Ziva feelings if something was to happen to either of them.
Prologue Still Here Lyrics by Kristian Valen
Are you slipping away?
This is hard for me to say
I'm barely holding on…
So scared of the unknown
He was holding onto her hand, holding it tightly willingly for her to fight, to fight in order to stay alive, not only for herself but for him. He needed her, he just didn't know how much until she saved his life by sacrificing her own. Now because of that act of selflessness, here they both are. Her, fighting for her life and with him, being there for her when she wakes up.
I'm still here…
Holding your hand
"Oh Ziva..." He pleaded. "...Why did you do that? Why did you save me?" A tear rolled down his cheek, followed by a few more, then a stream. "Haven't I told you? that I can't live without you?"
Close your eyes
I'll stay beside you
I'm still here
I won't let them find you
I'll be laying right here by your side
Tony Dinozzo had been by her side since they had rushed her into theatre. It took all the strength of the nurses, Gibbs and McGee to hold him back as he was going to follow them into the theatre room. He yelled for them to get off him. He needed to be with her, he needed to be with the one woman he realised that he truly love. He collapsed onto his knees and cried into McGee's arms. With Gibbs nod to the nurses to reassure that both he and McGee will take over, the nurses went back into the theatre. Tony felt his heart shatter into a million pieces and the two left standing also felt theirs break. For both him and Ziva and being powerless not be able to do anything but watch the broken man and the doors shut.
Even though my heart is breaking
Seeing you like this I'll face it
Don't be afraid
You're not alone
He heard the sound of Ziva flat lining in the theatre, before the doors were fully closed, bringing the attention of the cardiac arrest team charging into the already full room. Tony cried even screaming to help her. His world from then on, went into slow motion.
From now I'll walk alone
No one to guide me
I'm completely alone
Inside the room the crash team, doctors and nurses were battling to safe the young Israelite woman who stole the heart of the broken man outside. The doctors yelled as they shock her, making her whole body jerk. The nurses pressing on her chest to try and get that heart to beat... Once, twice, three times. Silence... Everyone stands to attention and all eyes watching the heart monitor...Nothing, still flat lining. The nurses charged the machine to the next level and tried again... Once, twice, three times again the silence...thinking of calling it a day when the sweet sound of the beep suddenly echoed around the room...
Was it worth all this pain?
For just a stolen moment
In the rain
The relief was short lived as the doctors and nurses fought to stop the bleeding and get the bullet out.
I'm still here…
Holding your hand
That was hours ago where the doctors told Gibbs that again they almost lost her, but also that she is a fighter. 'I could have told you that. She has been through a lot to give up on life now.' Tony had told the doctor in charge before asking him if he can see her.
Close your eyes
I'll stay beside you
I'm still here
I won't let them find you
Ever since then; he hadn't moved from his spot, his hand on top of hers, gently holding on to it; his thumb stroking at her hand in a circular motion just for comfort. His eyes watching her, taking her features in. Noting how peaceful she looked. Forcing himself to believe that she is just sleeping and not tied up to machines that were there, to keep her alive. The sound on the beep was in a strange way a comfort to him, soothing.
He will do anything to see those brown eyes of hers again.
I'll be laying right here by your side
Even though my heart is breaking
Seeing you like this I'll face it
Don't be afraid
You're not alone
The doctor warned them that they were not able to remove the bullet; she is still at risk so they are still keeping a vigil on her.
How can I
Move on and fly
When I still don't know
The reason why
You and I
We touched the sky
Someone give me a reason why
Abby, Ducky, Parmer and even Director Vance had now arrived, Gibbs given Vance an update. Abby noticing McGee all quiet, seeing that he couldn't look at her, pressing further, asking him to open up to her.
When McGee brought himself to face her, she notice his eyes of sorrow his eyes were red raw from crying. She pulled him into a hug and again to open up. McGee pulled away and spoke, "It's my fault Abby, I'm responsible for Ziva getting shot." McGee looked away too ashamed to even look at Abby.
"Tim?"
"I tackled Giuseppe Fasulo, he pulled the trigger as we hit the floor...Everything was so fast..." McGee's voice then broke with raw emotion. "...I thought it was a miss, going through thin air, not hitting anything. Until Tony Screamed Ziva's name...I'm responsible Abby..."
"Oh Tim..." McGee broke down into Abby's opened arms as she to shed the tears and feel her heart break.
Close your eyes
I'll stay beside you
I'm still here
I won't let them find you
I'll be laying right here by your side
Tony still sat and watched Ziva, her chest slowly going up and down, he was shattered but he didn't want to leave her bedside not until he saw those chocolate eyes again and that smile. "I know I sometimes have been a jackass to you over the years...I did it out of love...Heh...Seriously... I never got to tell you how much I love you..." Fresh new tears were building it, his hand gripping tighter on Ziva's. "C'mon Ziva...Wake up..." He willed her on; he broke when he saw no movement and hearing nothing but the beep and not her sweet soft voice, his eyes turned to anger "WAKE UP! ZIVA..!" He shouted, before his voice broke and the anger turned to sorrow and the shout into a whisper. "...Please wake up...I love you!"
He let the many tears drop and watched as they expand on the bed covers.
And even though my heart is breaking
Seeing you like this I'll face it
Don't be afraid
You're not alone
So close your eyes
I'll stay beside you
I'm still here
The gentle beep of the machine was the only thing that is keeping him company.
I won't let them find you
I'll be laying right here by your side
And even though my heart is breaking
Seeing you like this I'll face it
Don't be afraid
You're not alone
TBC...