A/N: Hey guys! I got myself a new idea. I'm going to try and find 100 songs that fit my favorite couple, which is Cargan. I know its crazy, but I will do it! Even if it means it will take me a long time. Anyway, Im going to try and find some songs for this story. Im sorry if this is too sad Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I dont own Big Time Rush or the song If I Die Young
Warning: Character Death
Songs of Heart
Chapter 1: If I Die Young
Carlos POV
Its only been a year since Logan and I confessed our love to each other. It was the best year of my life, until that fateful day. That day still plays in my head. This wasn't fair. I can't believe what happened, and it was still fresh on my mind. That was the day that Logan died. I still remember it like it was yesterday.
*Logan and I were walking around the park after our date. It was oh so perfect. Logie was always such a romantic. We were just walking across the street. I was ahead of Logan while walking backwards. Apparently I wasn't paying attention cause the last thing I remember was Logan pushing me towards the building. My head was smashed into the wall, but I only suffered minor damage and knocked out for a minute or two. The next thing I knew, Logan was just lying there. I started to panic and dragged Logan to the sidewalk. As I dragged him, blood was showing up under his body. I began to panic even more. I tried to wake him up, but no answer. So I called 911, and in a couple of minutes, Logan was getting driven away to the hospital on an ambulance. After informing everyone about what happened, we all went straight to the hospital. I immediately rushed to Logan's room when the nurse told us where he was, but I was too late. As I arrived, the monitor only showed a straight line and a continuous ringing. He was dead. The doctors couldn't do anything to save him. I was crushed. He was the only thing that I wanted, and now he's gone forever. I was now forever trapped in the darkness.*
That was three months ago. After the funeral, I visited Logan's grave at least once per week. It was winter in Minnesota, so whenever I visited him, I wiped off the snow since Logan hated the cold. Today was one of those days where I visited him. Every time I went to his gravestone, I always remembered the memories that Logan and I shared. I also remember the incident that caused his death, so it was comforting yet painful at the same time. One of the most memorable moments was when he sang to me. He had such a beautiful voice. He always sang my favorite song. It was one of the few things that I always remember about him. I kept on wishing that he would still be alive and sing to me. Memories...
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of rose
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the word of a love song
Oh Oh
Oh Oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know Im safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries he baby
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of rose
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the word of a love song
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
So put on you best boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done
A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you're dead how people start listening
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of rose
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the word of a love song
The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
So put on you best boys, and I'll wear my pearls
I kept crying just by the memory of my dear, sweet Logie. I couldn't stop, even if I wanted to. Just then, a hand landed on my shoulder. I thought it was either Kendall or James since they're always tried to cheer me up ever since Logan died. I turned to see that it wasn't either of them. What I saw amazed and shocked me. It was Logan. He was wearing a white suit, and he had wings on his back. His chocolate eyes was glistening in the light. He looked even more beautiful than he was before.
"Thank you for visiting me Carlitos. It means a lot to me. I'll always be with you, and I'll watch you from above as your guardian angel. I must go."
"No! Stay with me! Please! I love you!"
"Dont worry about it. Like I said, I'll always be with you. I love you too."
He smiled at me as he flew towards the clouds. I wanted him to stay, but I had to move on. He was the one who lead me out of the darkness, and he was the one to be my light. At least he'll always be with me. Right, Logie?
A/N: Im sorry if the ending was a little rushed, but I couldn't take the sadness of it all. If you have any suggestions for more songs, please dont hesitate. Thanks for reading!
:) Narutopowerman (: