I wasn't supposed to want you
I shouldn't have longed for you gaze- to lose myself in those green eyes
to touch your pale skin
to stroke your cheek
to see my face reflected in your smile
but you were so easy to love
your laugh ringing through the halls
brought joy to my languid heart
the way you tried so hard to fit in
yet always stuck out
your easy stride as you crossed the lawn
determined to prove your worth
a brightness surrounded you-
how I ached to feel its warmth
you should have hated me
my trademark sneer
(though you must have seen how it softened for you)
my greasy drawl
how I never left you in peace
(did you see?)
it's as if you knew
through it all I loved you-
I had no choice but to play my part