Stealing Glances : His Turmoil
Rating : K+
Status : cOmpLete
Summary : I never believed in a love at first sight, not even heard of it. But, when I fell for it, I knew for sure that it was true. It was when I noticed her, I believed in such thing. (AU)
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I opened my eyes slowly
Like always
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It was raining at that time and I was running trying to catch the bus before I was going to be left behind. 'Damn motorcycle. Why it had to be broken now? Argh' If it weren't for the raining and the motorcycle, I'd probably be home right now. Oh, don't forget to add the damn Students Council thing! I hate that thing.
Phiuf, luckily I could catch the bus. Not a minute until I found a seat near the bus door. I could take a rest for a moment after running through the rain. I was still using my school uniform, white shirt and long green jeans. There's a symbol of my school in front of my pocket, a dragon combined with phoenix. Strange huh? I never knew the meaning of that symbol. It's just already been right that.
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It was dark here
Sometimes I looked up and envy the day
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A few minutes later, an old woman got into the bus. She was holding many things and there was no seat left. Everyone on the seat pretended that she wasn't there and were not willing to give their seat. I let a sigh. I stood up and helped the old woman (as a gentleman) to sit on my seat. She thanked me. I just nodded, not smiling back to her. Well, it's been long time for me to smile. I even forgot how to smile.
After my seat was being taken, I walked to the corner of the bus, trying to have a place to stand at there. I found one. It was almost at the end of the bus. I was bored at that time, so, I scanned the bus, looking for anything fun to be stared at or anything. It was then I noticed her, wearing the same uniform with me, but it was so beautiful and really suited her. She wore white blouse shirt with a green ribbon around the collar and a knee-length green skirt. She was so pretty, I must admit (which was rare for me to do such thing). Because, you know, I wasn't like Clyde who could really fit in girls' thing. One thing that I envied from him was that he could easily socialize not only with man but also with woman, something that I didn't have or would never have.
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And they said I was alone
No, it was because they never really noticed me
Never really cared for me
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She had a long brown strawberry hair or argh…I could never really good in color. Let's just pretend it was long brown strawberry hair and her eyes? Well, I couldn't really see well from where I standing. However, I could notice it was shining because of the reflection (or was it just my imagination?). She looked like an angel, sitting there in silence. Now, she was looking through the window and I could see from the glass that she was crying? What's wrong? She looked so sad.
If there's Clyde here, I could imagine he would walk to her and ask why she was crying. But I wasn't him and I could not do such embarrassing thing. Soon I noticed that she took her phone. Whomever she was talking to, it was really shown that she didn't want she or he on the other side felt worry of her. She put a fake smile and tried to hold her tears.
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Then I found it
A light in this dark
Please don't go
Please hold me forever
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From what she mouthed, because somehow I could read lips, she mouthed that she was alright and there's nothing to be worried about. Thanks for this strange ability, so, I could know what her conversation was.
Well, the day was over, when I saw her stood up from her seat walking towards me and then turned right to go out from the bus. She noticed me using the same uniform with her, maybe that's why she put a smile to me, but it was a genuine one (or it's just my feeling?). Then she was gone behind the door and I could not see her anymore.
I just wondered why I hadn't noticed her before. She was so beautiful, it was really impossible for me for not noticing her at first place right? Well, I must admit that I rarely used the bus, but I'd used it for 3 days and yet I hadn't seen her once. It's strange, wasn't it? Or it's just because I never put much attention to my surroundings. Sometimes, I was too busy with my head that maybe I didn't notice that there's a goddess in the bus. I chuckled in my mind, something that hadn't happened for as long as I could remember.
Soon, I found out from Clyde that her name was Lightning Strife. It was a strange name for a girl, you know. Lightning? But, I guess it suited her well, it showed how she was strong yet vulnerable at the same time. Fortunately, Clyde didn't ask much about why I wanted to know her. Just an addition, she was a year below me and was quite popular with her kendo technique or whatsoever.
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Is it true that I was alone?
Is it what I really wanted?
To be in the darkness forever?
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Today, I saw her again. Like before, she was alone and sitting at the corner. But, today she seemed happier. I wondered why. Was it because her problem before had been solved? Or maybe she was dating one of the popular guys at my year, Squall Leonhart? Well, I did hear from Clyde that she was dating with Squall, but he mentioned that they broke up two days ago. Two days ago, it was the first time I noticed her and while she was crying. Could it be because of him?
Oh gosh, I thought something's really wrong with me. I really hope that someday I could talk with her. Or maybe there'd be someday that I'd be like Clyde, to talk to whomever I wanted and to say whatever I wanted without thinking it over and over again. If only I had a little from Clyde's socialization, I'd be very grateful.
But, guess, until that day arrive, I could only be satisfied to steal a glance of her on wherever I stood, sat. I didn't want anything more than talking to her. Something that I wish could happen someday.
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No, that's not what I wanted
I want the light
To hug me, to hold me forever
Soameday, someday soon, I'll walk out from this darkness
And now, I just needed to wait
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eL : Well, what do you think? I'm sorry if it's kind of OOC, I hope that Noctis didn't really OOC. It was really hard to have him in debating in his mind. Bwaha, but I was happy to make this idea. It was already in my mind for a week and I couldn't wait to publish it.
Noctis : I think, I kind of out of character here?
eL : What do you expect it to be then, Noct?
Noctis : Don't call me that –glare-
eL : Whatever. Okay, guys, ignore him and review for me please? Oh yeah, thank you so much for your support for my story Hikari no Nocturne, I'm trying my best to update that. Hehe, see you soon.
Oh yeah, I think I'll make a sequel for this and still from Noctis' POV or maybe a new chapter in Lightning's POV? But, until you tell me, let it be this way, okay?
Ciao
eL-ch4n ^^