This will be a collection of Lavi/Allen shorts, enjoy!
Song the fic was written to: Sharks - Go West Young Man
Warnings: None
The first kiss was nerve-wracking.
There was no elegance here, no romance or subtlety or the sort of perfection you found in cheap paperback novels. They were a mess of entangled limbs and Allen's hair kept falling forward and trapping itself between their lips, and god knows where Lavi was meant to put his hands, and it was awkward, awkward in a way that left their stomachs fluttering because neither of them knew what they were doing.
And as Allen pulled back, yet again, apologising and tucking hair behind his ear in an embarrassed gesture - and it was this, above all, that stayed with Lavi for years afterwards - and as he leant forward, slowly, eyes half closed and cheeks flushed and fingers trembling against Lavi's cheeks only to tilt his head the wrong way so they bumped noses, anxiety and doubt and intoxicating longing bubbled up to the surface and Allen found himself laughing. It was part hysteria - because he shouldn't be doing this, he shouldn't have given in to this - and part hilarity because of all people he should know what to do, how to navigate this.
And yet somehow this gentle and tender intimacy, where the boy beneath him was just as nervous, with a jade green eye full of all the love and doubt and need Allen felt but could never express, it left him fragile and nervous and unable to think anything beyond I want this, this is okay, I want this, this is okay. And what else could he do but laugh at this, this ridiculous fragility that left his sides shaking and eyes burning with tears that he could only partly blame on the laughter, and Lavi's confused expression only made him laugh harder until they were both laughing, neither not quite knowing exactly why it was they were doing it.
But the tension had passed, and Allen was no longer trembling, and when Lavi pressed a gentle kiss against his forehead and called him an idiot he settled into this warm tenderness and made himself at home.