Even now, almost two years later, it's not easy. Jo thinks about the abuse all the time. The thing is, it wasn't just the physical abuse that got to her. Hell, it was the physical stuff that hurt her, and how could it not. Broken bones, painful bruises, deep cuts, warm blood dripping down her helpless body as she lays on the cold floor wishing she was somwehere else, wishing she was someone else. But even then, something else hurt more. His words. He was her mentor, but he was also her world. So having her whole world, having him hate her, look at her with dissappointment and anger in his green, beautiful, or more like horrible eyes, was even worse. It's different now. She has a different, probably even better life. And she has a new world she lives in, or almost lives with. Maybe. They're not really, officially together yet, but that hot douche she worked with a while ago sure seems to be the one good thing that's happened to her in a long time. She's not entirely sure how things will go on from here, but she feels good about it. She feels something she hasn't felt in a long time. She feels love, and for Jo, that isn't something she takes lightely at all. She likes him. She really does. She almost gave up her ortho surgery residency with Callie, the best teacher she's ever had, just to work with him and see him every day. On peds. Josephine Alice Wilson almost gave up her ortho dream so she could spend more time with him, Alex Karev. But no, she's lost herself once ready over a guy, and she promised herself she'll never do that again, and right now, as she's shopping around the town, looking for the perfect dress for their first date, she thinks about it all. Maybe that promise was stupid, she thinks, but deep down she knows that it was anything but stupid. Even still, she can't help but wonder: "What if this all was one big, ugly mistake.
Alex's POV:
I walk over to the coffee cart and sigh. Today has been one of the crappiest days of this year, and the gloomy Seattle weather really isn't helping. Today's just one of those days where it seems like anything that can go wrong - does go wrong. And trust me that when I say it's been bad, it really has. I mean, not to sound too depressing but my life mostly sucks anyway, but damn do i hate it today. First, i had to tell a young couple that their perfect little baby has cancer. Fun, right? Then I had a kid die on me. It wasn't my fault, i mean it was God or whatever the hec ypu believe in. I was raised to believe in God, but i don't. I never really did i guess...Anyway, the kid was terminal and all, but still, that doesn't make it right. That just makes it worse. It means they fight even when they know that they're gonna loose, but they still fight just to die figting. It's scary, sad and straight up wrong. But no big deal, right? It's just one kid? Well, no. He was 4, and of course, didn't deserve to die. They never do. I hate it when i see kids die. Seeing adults, that have lived and nade mistakes die is one thing, sad-yes, but seeing kids...damn. Kids are innocent and it's almost like a rule that they get the crap they didn't deserve. Oh, and don't even get me started on how painful it is to watch as their little eyes slowly loose their sparkle the closer they get to the end. It's like some sick, twisted, unfair game. I'm not soft, or at least i like to think i'm not, but some things, on some days are just too much. Today's one of those days. Oh, and my car broke this morning, and i'm pretty sure I lost 100 bucks from the side pocket of my jacket this morning. Yeah, this day can't get any worse-oh crap, tonight's also our first night as a couple.Yeah, not the best time for a first date. I need to impress her, but all I want to do is die. Ok, maybe not really die but at lesst fall asleep for a while, kinda like a coma. Yeah, a nice, long coma'd be quite nice now. Yeah, i really think this day can't get much worse...