Disclaimer: We do no own anything, we don't own Meredith or Derek and we definitely don't own the show.

An; Hey guys! This is a new story that is co-written with a really good friend of mine, Curly97. We have different ways of writing and we are still working on coming together as one, so give us a few chapters to really get in sync with each other. We both came up with idea's and central plots but I really got to hand it to my amazing friend to come up with great ideas for this!

This is sort of a songfic but not completely. It was inspired by the song Something I Need (Hint the title) by OneRepublic. The song is amazing and recommend you go listen to it.

Now without further adieu, I give you the first chapter.

I woke up one hour before my alarm should ring - I was so excited and also a little scared.
Today was the day. I would start working as an intern at SGH.
I could be proud of myself that I made it into this program if my stepfather, Richard Webber, wasn't the chief of surgery there.
Anyone would think I got this job because of him and my mother.
Yes, Ellis Grey is my mother. As a surgeon, she is infallible. As a mother she had failed completely though.
When I was in med school I had tried to convince them that I could do my internship at another hospital, but Ellis didn't want to hear it.
"I haven't brought you up to be an ordinary girl, who works at a second-rate hospital." She used to say. "When you're working at SGH, I can at least keep an eye on you, even if I'm not the chief of surgery. I have my ways, promise me. Richard will tell me everything." So the decision was set – I had to work there, even if I don't want to.
Fortunately I didn't have to work at Mercy West – Where Ellis was the chief of surgery. My mother and I rarely get along - scratch that, never get along.
How I am I going to survive this?

Luckily I was not alone.
Two weeks ago, I moved with my best friend Cristina Yang from Boston to Seattle - She was my person.
We knew each other since college. She was the only person who really knew me.

"Mer?" She knocked softly on my door.

Slowly I rolled out of bed and opened the door. It was so cold. "Did you have a nightmare?" She was always so worried about me.
Most people thought that Cristina had no heart, but if I don't have her..Then my life would be sad, empty, dark. "Yes." I sighed and crossed my arms over my chest. "It was not as bad as usual."
"I know you're lying." She shook her head and went into the kitchen.

We had rented a small apartment near the hospital - two rooms, living room, kitchen, bathroom. All we needed.

I looked at myself in the mirror in detail. No matter where I went, the glances of the men followed me always. That meant that I was pretty, right?
'You're ugly. Nobody wants you ' An evil voice in my head told me.

"I'll go take a shower, okay?" I winced. Cristina was standing behind me.
"Oh sorry. I thought that you would have heard me. "She looked at me apologetically.

I forced a smile. "No problem, I was thinking." I quickly turned from the mirror and reached for my phone.
'Three unread messages'

Ellis:
Meredith,
You didn't call last night. I believe that you were parting with your stupid friends. If you start tomorrow to work, I expect nothing more than pure perfection.

'Partying?'
No, my mother doesn't know me at all.
I couldn't remember a single day on which I went to a party.
Suddenly I saw him standing before me, his eyes dark. With shaking hands, I start to read the next message.

Ellis:
Meredith,
I would just like to remind you that you have to be on time tomorrow. Don't embarrass your stepfather.

Ellis:
Meredith,
I thought that you were at least two hours earlier than the others - but now I think it's the best, when I don't expect anything from you.

Tears burned in my eyes. No, I wouldn't start crying because of my mother.
I lay back on my bed and buried my face in my pillow - as Cristina came into my room, it was already completely soaked - My eyes were red and swollen.

"What happened?" She sat down on the bed and gently stroked my blonde hair.

"My mother hates me." I sobbed. "No matter what I do, it is always wrong."

Cristina groaned. "Don't believe what the old witch says. She doesn't know you! Meredith, We'll kick ass!" She took my hand in hers. "We were the best in our class. Damn, we are even at least a year younger than all the other interns. Be happy, you made it! You have to forget your mother. Now get your ass out of bed, I don't want to be late." She smirked.

"What would I do without you?" I brushed my hair out of my face and showered. I had the feeling, that the warm water swept my worries and fears away – at least for this moment.

Half an hour later, Cristina and I stood outside the entrance of the hospital. The rain drops were hard - they felt almost like pinpricks. "If we ever get used to the rain?" Cristina asked annoyed.

"The rain is amazing." I tilted my face against the gray sky and closed my eyes. So no one could see my tears.
"Fuck! I forgot something at home. " Cristina screamed.

"What?" I looked at her in surprise. Cristina never forgot something. "Hurry up. I'll wait here for you. "I offered.

"No, go inside. Here you'll probably catch a cold."
"Whatever." With a shrug I entered the hospital
Immediately I noticed the smell of disinfectant - I knew this all too well. I had spent my entire childhood in this fucking hospital.
Because my mother had to work the entire time.

I looked at the floor when I took a few steps forward. So I didn't see the man, who was walking in my way. Coffee ran down our hands. I didn't feel the pain. He grabbed my arm firmly.
"Damn It! Don't you have eyes in your head?" Two bright blue eyes stared angrily at me - I had the feeling that my words were stuck in my throat.
I was not able to say a word so I did the thing I always did when I was nervous. I ran.

I woke up again, the thunderstorms always seem to wake me up. I've lived here a total of five years and I have yet to get use to all this rain. I groaned looking over at the clock, it was only 4:00am and I wasn't getting anymore sleep. I went to the bathroom and stepped out of the pants I wore to sleep in and tried turning on the shower- of course the damn shower wouldn't work in this trailer.

"Fuck," I groaned as I heard my phone ring. I went out of the room and looked around for the phone. I picked it up off the table and noticed the name on the phone, stopping to check the date. Today was the first day with the idiot interns at work.

The words 'Mom' pop up on the screen and I throw the phone back down, I am not in the mood to talk to her today. After it stopped ringing, a tone came across the signaled there was a voice mail so I listened to it.

"Hello Derek, It's Mom. I probably shouldn't be calling this early but I know you will get the message when you wake up, please give me a call back. I'm very worried. I love you Derek."

Then the messaged ended. I probably wasn't going to call her back because she would ask questions I didn't want to answer. I laid back down, I was hoping to get a little more sleep but that wasn't working out. I dozed on and off for the next two hours before I ended up getting up and grabbing some jeans and a shirt, putting them on.

My phone started ringing again so I grabbed it and let out a groan as I answered.

"What?" I say coldly.

"Well someone's grumpy," the female voice cheerfully.

"Well Addie, it's 6:00am and I got about three hours total of sleep, what do you want."

"I'll be there in twenty minutes to pick you up, be ready. Also I have to drop Grace off this morning because Mark went in sometime during the night. Be ready!"

"I can drive myself, it's fine," I say trying to search my small kitchen for something to eat.

"It's raining Derek, you can't drive," she answers back.

"I'm a grown man, I can drive in the rain. God I am so tired of people treating me like a child," I spat with anger.

"Well maybe if you wouldn't act like one-" she said under her breath, thinking I didn't hear her.

"Damn it Addison, enough," I was getting irritated – more than I already was.

"Whatever Derek, Stop complaining and I will be there fifteen minutes tops," she said and I just let out a sigh. She was going to push until I agreed so I just said fine and we hung up. I grabbed the box of cereal I found and went to the front porch of my trailer. I sat under the canopy and looked out into the Forrest. Fifteen minutes passes and Addison hadn't arrived. Another ten minutes past and I couldn't wait any longer. I was getting worried. I called and her phone went to voice-mail and the images of that night raced into my head.

"Stop it Derek," I cursed myself. I couldn't think like that, not now. I walked into my trailer and grabbed my car key's and hopped into my truck. I was running late so I sped up a bit and I heard my phone chime. I grabbed it and looked at the text message.

Addie:
Sorry Derek! Grace threw a fit this morning and I meant to call you, Hope you are on your way and didn't worry. See ya when you get to work.

I threw the phone in the seat next to me. Damn it Addison, you had me worried. I quickly made my way to work and pared in my usual spot. I grabbed my phone and jacket and went inside. I quickly ran to my office and went in, changing into my navy scrubs and white coat. I shoved the pager into my coat pocket.

"Derek?" I heard a knock before my door opened and a tall, dark skinned man came into my office.

"Yeah Richard?" I asked and he came in, not moving far inside.

"Today the interns are here, I am about to go give my speech now. I need you to go easy this year, you made three interns leave the program last year," he mentioned. I didn't mean to scare them off but they should learn what it means to be strong. You can't be weak in this line of work.

"I understand, now if you excuse me, I have to go grab some coffee," I walked past him without even saying goodbye and hurried down to the first floor to the coffee cart. I reached into my pocket to grab my wallet and it wasn't there. Damn it, it was probably in the car.

"Sorry, My wallet is in the car, I'm gonna go grab it," I offered a smile at the lady and she nodded. I grabbed my cup and took a sip.

My phone buzzed and I took it out to read the text message and before I knew it, the coffee was all over me and whom ever I ran into. I grabbed her arm instinctively and shot my eyes at her, anger flared in them.

"Damn It! Don't you have eyes in your head?" I shot a look into her scared eyes. My gaze softened as she looked embarrassed then quickly took off.