Worthless

A/n: This is just something that I thought of one night. Thanks for clicking on the little link and please review, but no flames. Thanks! ^_^!

The door opened with a slight creak and, looking at the floor, I switched on the light. I've been up every night since that day…staring at myself in the mirror, my eyes red and puffy. The tears rarely battle me in the day, where I use every ounce of my being to fight them away, but at night I have no defense and the tears swallow me, eventually leading me to my current position. Cold water ran down my face as I tried to calm my short, ragged breaths.

It had been about three months since that day…three dragging months…and I still feel just as worthless now as I did then. I sat down on my bed and fell to the pillows, sleep trying to coax me back. I turned and faced the wall…it's always the same every time I close my eyes….

Gohodoji….

Sorata….

Fuma….

Blood….

And then I wake up, choking sobs racking my body, pulling me from the nightmare that had been my reality.

Sorata had gotten hurt because of me and I could do nothing…nothing.

I could only watch as he suffered at my expense, that same smile telling me that everything would be all right and that he had chosen me; that it was his destiny to die for the woman he loved…the woman that just happened to be me. I had been so cold to him…

And everyday I hate myself more for it.

Even if it would hurt me more in the end, wouldn't it have been worth it? It took me until he got injured to realize that all I wanted was someone to love me…that all I wanted…was him….

I wanted him to stay with me, so I joined the Dragons of the Earth, tempting fate. I did nothing but seal what the Old Stargazer had prophesized. Sorata died protecting the woman he loved. Tears fell from the corners of my eyes again. There was no use in fighting them this time, or ever for that matter; I could never win over them. I had dug myself a deep hole and had fallen in with now way out.

Would fate finally be kind to me and end my worthless life?

How could I keep my promise to him?

How could I live for the both of us if I had no desire to live myself?

Why did I have to be born a Dragon of the Heavens?

Why?

I stared at the wall as the tears soaked into the blankets held at my face. I tried to smother the sobs, tried to get them to stop; but nothing, and no one, could stop them…no one…except him. And that's when I felt him near me…my tears had called for him…I called for him. I blinked slowly as his hand gently wiped the tears from my face, a soft breath escaping my mouth. His spectral lips kissed mine, and I longed for his touch even more.

"I'm sorry…." I whispered to him as I closed my eyes. Every night he was here for me and every night I apologized to him. Apologized for being worthless, apologized for everything. I opened my eyes and saw him, a sad, distant, almost disappointed, look on his face. He shook his head and wrapped his arms around me like he did every night and I slowly fell back into slumber, his words singing me to sleep.

"I love you…."

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