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Chapter One
A/N I wrote this song all by my self so be gentle when judging I am not good at song writing. It's called "What Happened to I Love You?" The second on is Miley Cyrus "These Four Walls."
There's something I got to say
It seems things can't go my way
We were fine a few days ago
What happened to I love you?
I thought that we were meant to be
How did I get here?
I thought that you always loved me
But I was wrong
I see that now
How can I have been so stupid?
I should have seen this coming
Should have run along time ago
What happened to I love you?
Why'd you have to go
It doesn't seem fair to me
But I guess I got to move on
And I feel my body going num
But I'll love you forever and ever
And I always will
And by the way
You suck
Jerk
Every time I sang that song I was in tears (though the last line made me laugh) but the crowd loved it so I sang it at every show. I knew it was hard on Jacob to hear me sing it with so much pain.
"Bells you've got 5 minutes can you be ready to go on again or should I send on a filler?" Jacob asked.
"No I'll be fine I just need a few." I said. Jacob has been my boyfriend and manager for a few years now. Ever since HE left I Jacob has been there for me. At first he was only my best friend but after he graduated high school we both moved to LA so that we could get out of Washington. Neither of us had much money since both our dads died so we moved in together and have been together ever since. When Jacob found out I could sing he all but forced me to audition at a club not far from our loft and that is where I work now with Jacob as my manager.
"Bella you're on!" Jacob called. The next song I was supposed to sing was just as depressing.
"Jacob I think I need some less depressing songs." I said as I walked on to stage.
These four
walls It must have
been something that send me out of my head It's hard now to let you be Yeah, it's difficult It must
have been something that send me out of my head
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they
would not keep
Didn't take long for the room to fill with
trust
And these four walls came down around us
With the words so
radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the
silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls
again
I won't make excuses
I've
made my peace
Didn't take long for me to lose the trust
'Cause
these four walls were not strong enough
ooooh
It must have been
something that send me out of my head
With the words so
radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the
silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls
again
Watching us fade
Knowing it's
all my fault
My mistake
Yeah, it's difficult
Letting you
down
Knowing it's all my fault
You're not around
With the words so
radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the
silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls
again
Yeah
Ooh
These four walls again
"THANK YOU EVERYONE! GOODNIGHT!" When I got off stage the first thing I did was wrap Jacob up in the biggest hug ever and bury my face in his chest.
"Its ok hunny, I love you." He said.
"I love you too." I answered.
"Hey, why don't you go back to your dressing room and get ready to go and when we get home I'll make us something to eat ok?"
"Ok." I said reluctantly pulling out of the hug. I went back to my dressing room and started taking off all the makeup I had on. When I was finished I put on my favorite pair of gray sweatpants and a blue cami.
"Hey Bells you ready to go yet?" Jacob called from the other side of the door.
"Yah just let me grab my purse." I called back. The walk home was something I was very used to. Nothing extremely bad happens in this part of L.A. as long as you know some people on the streets. Just being with Jacob made me safer than anyone else.
"Great show tonight hun!" Jacob said pulling me closer to him. Just then my thoughts stopped when I smacked into something as cold as ice and as hard a brick. I knew exactly what it was without even looking. I looked up at the Greek god like face that I had been without for two years. His eyes were the same breathtaking color, his face the same. My memory had not done him justice.
"What the heck do you want!" Jacob screamed.
"That was an amazing show. I didn't know you could sing." Edward said completely ignoring Jacobs's outburst.
"Why are you here Edward?" I said trying to keep my voice from cracking.
"I came to see the show." He said giving me the stupid crooked smile that I love.
"Well you've seen it know get out of here!" Jacob yelled.
"I would like to talk to Bella first." Suddenly his face was twisted in pain while Jacob began to smile.
"What are you doing to him!"
"Just showing what he missed while he was gone; what you were like after he left." As soon as Jacob said that Edward took off at the sped of light.
"Jacob!" I screamed. "How could you do that to him!"
"Honestly Bella! Do you ever remember what you were like? You weren't you! You still aren't you! I won't let that happen to you again!"
To that I said nothing I simply pulled him in a strong and whispered I love you in his ear.
"Come on Bella its late lets get home."
When we got home Jacob went to go fix a midnight dinner and I went to put my purse in the bedroom. Lying on the bed was a picture of Edward and I just before my birthday. On the back it said-
Bella,
I don't expect you to
forgive me but if
you ever want to
talk just call
I will always be here
for you. I'm so sorry.
All my love,
Edward
P.S. you truly are a
wonderful singer.
He was here, in my room, he is sorry, and most of all he loves me. He loves me. It sounds so strange.
Okay well there you go but please review because I need motivation because I have most of the chapters ready but I'm a little confused on which guy she will chose so help me please. Also I'm typing with a wrist brace so it's really tough so yah. Love yall.
Starz (my nickname)