Title: Kokoro no Naka de…

Author: Telgar

Fandom: Card Captor Sakura

Pairings: Sonomi/Nadeshiko one-sided, Tomoyo/Sakura one-sided, mention of Touya/Yukito

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: I don't own Card Captor Sakura or any of the characters in this fanfiction. I'm just borrowing them from CLAMP for fun.

Warnings: Unreciprocated incestuous feelings, slight angst

Summary: A long time ago, Sonomi fell in love with Nadeshiko. Not quite so long ago, Tomoyo fell in love with Sakura. Different perspectives on their feelings. One-sided Sonomi/Nadeshiko and Tomoyo/Sakura; mentioned Syaoran/Sakura and Touya/Yukito.

Daidouji Sonomi no Kokoro

Sonomi sighed as she looked out the window of her study, chin in the palm of her hand. She should have been working on some business for her company, but she simply couldn't make herself concentrate.

It was white day, and Tomoyo had come home simply glowing from the present she had received from Sakura-chan in return for the chocolate she had made her best friend the previous Valentine's day.

It always astounded Sonomi how she and her daughter could be so different, and yet so alike at the same time. Tomoyo was sedate and calm, with apparently no temper whatsoever. Sonomi wasn't like that now, let alone when she had been that age. In fact, when she finds the time to sit down and talk with her daughter (nowhere near as often as she likes, but she has a very busy schedule), she often comes away from their conversations wondering which one of them is more mature. Despite being the adult and mother in the relationship, she has a sneaking suspicion it's not her.

Yet both mother and daughter have one stunning similarity, and it's not one Sonomi particularly wanted to pass along to her only child. As lovely as Nadeshiko was, Sonomi's feelings brought her more pain than joy most of the time.

Tomoyo's calm personality, however, seems to lead her to a much better handle on the situation than Sonomi ever had.

Sonomi ranted and raved and beat up any guy who got within ten feet of Nadeshiko. In fact, she still wonders how the hell Fujitaka got past her, but it might have something to do with being scared out of her wits at the time. Honestly, who climbs a tree like that if they don't know how to get down again?! Regardless, she had always been rather protective of Nadeshiko, whether or not Nadeshiko wanted to be protected.

Tomoyo, on the other hand, has smiled and supported Sakura into the strange and untried world of boys, even going so far as to encourage Sakura towards a young classmate of theirs. It's the difference between being forced to go somewhere and going there not only willingly, but happy in the knowledge that it's for the best.

Tomoyo has been the perfect best friend, and treasures every gift and smile Sakura-chan bestows upon her. Somehow she never seems to cry herself to sleep as her mother once did. Sonomi is very glad for the differences between them in this respect. She even thinks that if only she had been more like Tomoyo, maybe she could have been by Nadeshiko's side to the end, even if it was Fujitaka who always had Nadeshiko's heart.

It's much too late for that now, however, and all Sonomi can do is try to make amends to Nadeshiko by accepting Fujitaka, and be glad that her daughter is so much wiser than she was. Even though they walk the same path, Sonomi knows that Tomoyo was many steps ahead before she even started. Sonomi doesn't know if she can ever catch up, but she thinks that she should try anyway, so with barely a glance for her unfinished work she stands and walks down the hall in search of Tomoyo. Maybe she'd be willing to have Sakura and her family to a picnic that weekend. She's sure Nadeshiko would have liked that.