"Damn Brat, I'll Sue!"
"How could you do this to us, you worthless son! *Smack*"
"You're mother's right, I'm ashamed."
""So basically, you got kicked out for being a pain in the ass."
"Being a pain in the ass"
"Stop, stop it please."
"Come on, cooperate. Or what, you want another shot?"
"To think all those crimes were led by a punk like this."
"We're going to make you understand... One must take full responsibility for their actions.
"Stop, I swear, I'm innocent, please believe me."
-ker...
joker...
JOKER! Wake up!
*Gasp*
Akira woke up panting, coated in a thin layer of sweat. He could feel a weight on his hips. Looking forward, it was Morgana, looking as worried as a cat could.
"Are you alright? That's the 3rd night in a row you've had one of these nightmares!"
It had currently been 4 days since he met back up with his friends, but after his physical and mental rejuvenation, his nightmares had also come back. They had initially started a bit after changing Kamoshida's heart. He never let it on, but every time he heard people say all of that stuff about him, the more he hurt, and the more his subconscious started to believe it. Thus, many times he would have restless sleep due to the voices of all those disappointed in him. It had only gotten worse after the interrogation. Those interrogators had be relentless in attacking his Psyche. It helped that while invading Shido's palace, he could always let out his despair and anger into some shadows, without anybody knowing different.
"I'm fine, it's alright." He said, lying to his Cat/Fellow Phantom thief. "I'm Joker, the leader of the Phantom Thieves, it's just a little nightmare." Little was the biggest understatement he had ever said.
"His cat's bright blue eyes pierced through him with suspicion, before morphing into concern. "Are you sure we shouldn't get you some help? You've been more aggressive against shadows rece-" He couldn't finish the sentence before Akira interrupted him.
"I said I'm fine! Now, "I must be tired" and "We should go to sleep", alright!?" He said with abnormal agitation, causing Morgana to slink back. He immediately recognized his mistake and felt immediately guilty. "Sorry for going off at you Mona. It's just that I'm tired right now. I'm just angry at Shido for everything he's done to me." He soothed, lying again.
"Alright. Goodnight Joker."
"G'night mona."
He didn't immediately fall asleep though, instead, opting to Mona-Watch. He watched his cat slumber, envious of his easy sleep. He couldn't help but think about his earlier outburst though.
I really am like people say about me huh? I'm just some aggressive problem ch-, no, worse, some random pain in the ass. I'm just a disappointment.
He thought about all the fantastic people he bonded with, and how much he didn't deserve them.
I don't need them to know. It's probably already hard enough for them just being my friend, Poor Makoto having to drag down her reputation just to chat with me, or Ryuji and Ann getting scoffs and glares. I really am just a burden to them. I can't help them anymore, they helped themselves. I'm just some leech, who can't help themselves. And it's gonna stay that way. Maybe when I transfer back to my old town I can just cut ties with all of them. Save them the issues that come with being associated with me.
Thoughts like that continued until he drifted back into his nightmares, his body, this time opting to stay quiet.