This follows some of the book and may even jump ahead... So If you don't want spoilers for the show, and you haven't read the books... I would highly suggest that you don't continue... Spoilers lie ahead, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! This is my first Shadowhunters fanfic so please let me know what you think, open to suggestions. Enjoy!

Clary was training with Alec who seemed distracted. "Alec, you're supposed to be training me, remember?" She stopped and set her staff on the ground beside her. Alec looked at her but stopped and leaned on his staff.

"Sorry, I'm a bit distracted." He heard a ding and pulled out his phone. It was Magnus.

Hey, what are you up to?

Training Clary. Text you later.

K. See you after for drinks?

Yeah, okay. Bye.

Bye.

Clary raised an eyebrow at him. He shrugged it off and went to find Isabelle. Clary put away the staffs and picked up her drawing book. She flipped through to her last page.

"I guess I'll need a new one then." She took out a pencil and started to draw.

Jocelyn was walking by and she saw Clary drawing. "Clary?" Clary immediately closed her book. It had become a habit. She looked up and saw it was only her Mom so she opened it back up.

"Yeah? What's up?" Jocelyn came up the stairs as Clary began to start drawing again.

"I could ask you the same. What are you drawing?" Clary then started to close the pad, but her Mom grabbed it before it fully closed. "Oh, Clary…" Clary forgot about the book and walked, almost like a fast walk back to her room. Jocelyn stared at the started drawing. Even though it was unfinished she could tell what it was, or more, who it was. She flipped through the other pages all of the same person… Jace.

It had been almost a month now and still no sign of Jace or Valentine. Clary and Alec were focused on training, Izzy was, well doing what she always did, except she was now with Simon. Magnus was trying to get Alec to do something other than train but was failing. If Clary wasn't training she was sketching, mostly Jace.

"Oh Clary…" Jocelyn closed the pad and headed down the steps.

Jace's voice ran through her head, replaying the moments that she loved best. Because now she knew that they weren't siblings it was easy for her to admit how she felt about Jace.

"I got the Cup."

"I don't care about the Cup. When I came out of the tunnels, I didn't see you. I was worried - something might have happened."

"There was a demon. Shapeshifter. It looked just like you."

"You all right?"

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine."

"And the demon?"

"I sent him straight back to hell."

"How'd you know it wasn't me?"

"I just knew."

"Really? Kind of a risk, wasn't it?"

"Well, this may come as a surprise, but I actually do listen to some of the things you tell me. You just have to pay attention to the details."

"Yeah, well, I told you the first time we met, you have the Sight. You're a Shadowhunter, just like the rest of us."

Their first kiss...She could only describe it as, a rush. She just acted, she didn't think of the consequences, but it payed off. To an extent. Valentine, her father, had tried to ruin it, tear them apart, and it almost worked, it did work for awhile, now she just had to focus on getting him back… he didn't know what she knew...Valentine might have convinced him but she wouldn't let him win.

Clary sat on her bed looking at the one drawing she allowed herself to take out of her sketch book. It was of Jace and her. She had done it to the best of her abilities. It had to be perfect otherwise it wouldn't feel real. She put the drawing away after a while and rolled on to her side, she thought sleep would come easily but she was wrong, even though it had been a month sleep was still not able to comfort her. She let a few tears stream down her face as she thought about Jace. She realized then that he didn't want to be found, he wanted to keep her away so Valentine wouldn't capture her as well. Not that it helped that he thought that he was Valentine's son. Which would mean that she and Jace were siblings, but Clary knew now that this was a lie.

Luck seemed against them but Clary wasn't going to give up. She somehow knew that she could find Jace if she tried hard enough. She thought about the portal shard, maybe she could get another one or even get that one back? No that would be crazy, she couldn't go back there, she'd need an anchor, and being around that Jace would for sure not help. Maybe though...No she wouldn't go back there, besides why would the Seelies ever let her go back. She had made it so a demon could get through there's no way that she could even try to convince them.

Her tears flowed at almost a steady pace now. Maybe she could get Magnus to try? He did say that warlock tracking was strong… she would ask tomorrow. Right now she was forced with the task of trying to get to sleep.