I own nothing. Except seasons 1 & 2 on DVD

He Knew

He knew she would never look at him the way she used to. The way she had looked at him.

He knew that she cared, but her heart was not truly in it.

When Denny died, a part of Izzy did too. It was as if she had been living with out a heart ever since his stopped beating. It hurt Alex to see her like that, but there was nothing he could do.

He waited for a long time and then she came back to him.

He knew it wasn't because she had suddenly realised how much she missed and loved him, she just didn't want to be alone.

That was painful, having to settle for someone who really didn't want him, but he took it anyway.

He loved her, always had and always would. Even if she never did.

He knew her friends didn't think it was a good idea for them to be together, but they wanted Izzie to be happy, and being with Alex was the closest thing Izzie was ever going to get.

The night Denny died, he sat holding her as she sobbed, and he couldn't stop himself from thinking how comfortable he felt holding her in his arms; how well she fit there.

He knew it was wrong. A disgusting thing to think after such a short time, while she cried her eyes out for the man she loved.

But he couldn't help himself.

He had won.

Even after all the things he had done wrong, she was back in his arms.

She was his again.

He knew he would go to hell for those thoughts but it didn't matter.

Izzie would never look at him the way she had in the beginning and she would never love him like she had Denny.

He knew he was being stupid, but he didn't care.

He loved her, and love made you do stupid things.

Like settling for someone who no longer cares instead of finding real love.

But sometimes it doesn't matter.

Can you make yourself love? Can you make yourself be loved?

Alex wasn't sure, but judging by the way Izzie still looked at him and said those words so hollowly, he didn't think so.

Pahetic I know, but I always thought Alex and Izzie would get back together, but then Denny showed up. I thought maybe she'd be with him forever, but he had to go and die didn't he? So my new theory, Izzie got sick of being alone and got back together with Alex. I suck. Sorry.

"Can you make yourself love? Can you make yourself be loved?" - this is from the Sisterhood of the Travewling Pants, the book, not sure about the movie.