Fading Stars
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Summary: Bella goes into a downward spiral. She wants to fill the hole Edward left and she will do anything to achieve it. It has everyone's point of view in it at some point. Some of the things she does are really stupid and it endangers not only her life but the lives of people around her as they try to stop her.
Authors note: I really like the twilight series. I read all the books in a week. This is my first FanFic. Um it is after Edward left Bella. I wanted to see what it would be like if Bella changed completely from what we all know her to be. I hope you guys like it because I tried really hard to have it make sense. Um ok now I am rambling a bit. Sorry about that. So before I give away too much of the story I should start writing.
Disclaimer notice: I don't own Twilight no matter how much I wish I did. All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.
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Chapter 1: Realisations.
Bella's POV
I can see his beautiful eyes right in front of me. I feel his smooth, cold fingers tracing patterns into my back. Smell is sweet scent all around me. Last of all I feel the soft way he kisses me, so gentle as not to hurt me. His cool marble lips pressed against mine.
'No, no, no, no, no. I can't think of him like that. I will not think of him like that.
He's gone and he is never coming back. No matter how much I kid myself, I am never going to see him again.' I think, giving myself a stern lecture.
It has been a year since Edward left me and I am still trying to fool myself into thinking I will see him again.
I have moped around this house doing everything I did before Edward up and left me. With one exception, every small noise I hear, every scrape against my bedroom window, every small whisper in the wind, my heart starts racing and my palms get sweaty. I start hyperventilating and nearly pass out. I have deluded myself into thinking he will come back. And since he always came in through my window if I hear it rattling I think it is Edward coming back for me.
I know it is stupid to think that because I know he is never, ever coming back for me.
I have to change. I will not be the sad girl moping in the back ground because the love of her life left her. I have to change and the sooner I realise that the better it will be.
The sound of Charlie's cruiser pulling up in the driveway broke me out of my daydream. I forgot to put something on for Charlie's tea so I guess it will have to be left over spaghetti bolognaise. I am to worn out to worry if Charlie will be annoyed or not. Lately other people's emotions have not fazed me in the slightest.
I think I am finally starting to move on. I place Charlie's tea on the table just as he sits down. He grunts a 'thanks' in reply and starts to shovel down his food.
I pick up my bag from the corner and head up stairs to start on my homework. I can feel Charlie's anxious stare on my back as I start up the stairs, but I don't turn around and Charlie slowly turned away to start on his food again.
I know he is worried about me but I wish he would stop staring at me. It is really starting to get annoying.
All of a sudden the carpet at the top of the stairs is rushing towards me. While I was fuming about Charlie, I forgot to watch my step and tripped over the last one.
I land with a muffled bang on the floor. My stomach kind of hurts from landing on the books but other than that I am fine.
"You ok Bells?" Charlie called anxiously from the kitchen.
"Fine dad," I answer. "Just tripped on a stair."
I can hear his laughing. "That's my girl." He mutters to himself, not realising I can hear him.
I feel the need for a shower so I dump my home work in my room and head to the bathroom instead.
I relax as the warm water massages my back and I am soon lost in daydreams.
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Authors note: I know I said she would have changed but don't worry that part is coming soon. I really hope you guys liked it and please review I want to know what you thought. Hopefully I will update soon if people liked it.
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