Someday Somehow
Ok so I know it's another songfic. For Knight of Avalon who asked for this. Sorry it took so long, but it took me a while to get me happy with it.
Episode tag for Beneath the Surface
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Jack offered to drive her home and they set off together for the surface. 'Oh the irony' Jack thought as hit the elevator button.
Ten minutes into the journey home Carter still hadn't said anything since they left the infirmary, she just stared out of the windscreen or down at her hands.
"Carter, you ok?"
"Fine, Sir." The automated response came out. 'So she wasn't fine but wasn't going to say anything'.
"Sam," But this time there was a response, she visibly flinched and turned away to stare out the side window, still not looking at him.
The silence becoming unbearable Jack turned on the radio, in need of a distraction, but fate it seems hadn't finished with them:
How the
hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the
signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish
you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately
there's been too much of this
Jack just stared at the radio, Sam gripped her hands tighter on her lap but still resolutely looked anywhere but at Jack.
Don't
think its too late
Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you
know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
gonna make
it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're
the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it
alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Jack
turned to look at Sam and was startled to see a lone tear race down
her face, before she brushed it was angrily, still refusing to look
at him.
Well I hoped that since we're here anyway
We could
end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end
up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a
paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a
Hollywood horror
Jack pulled up outside Sam's house but
before she could get out he reached over and touched her shoulder,
trying to reach out to her again. "Sam"
She
stopped that time, caught by the urgency and pain in his
voice.
Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that
someday I will
He looked down at his hands trying to find the
words he wanted to say, any words that could say what he felt.
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I
know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows
that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right
now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows
that)
"I, I meant what I said, what Jonah said."
"Feeling feelings" Jack looked up into her face trying to read anything in her eyes. All he saw was the pain reflected there. "Feeling feelings" he affirmed.
"I can't deal with this sir, we had something, even if we ever-"
"No Sam, it'll be when, not if. I have to believe we'll get there"
"Someday"
"yeah," he sighed and looked back down at his hands
She sat there and looked at him as the song continued over the radio.
How the
hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the
signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the
story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets
rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror
Nothin's
wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday,
somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're
wondering when
(You're the only one who knows
that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right
now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one
who knows that)
I know
you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know
you're wondering when
The song finished and Sam got out of the
car and walked up the drive and into her house without looking back.
Jack turned the radio off and watched her door for a minute before
leaning his head back on the head-rest and closing his eyes.
'Someday, somehow'
He had to believe it. And it would be them this time, not some crazy virus, or alternative universe or damn memory stamp, it would be just them.