I'm new here guys first time writing a fic, so tell me what you think and if i should continue

I can sit here and say that I've learned a few things in my life, I know I haven't been around the earth all that long just a short seventeen years, but I have seen and felt things most fifty year olds haven't. I can say I loved and I can say I have failed at all things mostly… at love. I had the best girl anyone person can ask for and I ruined it, well the drugs may have played a roll in that. I guess I lost my control, myself and became cold, heartless and more alone then I ever have been. It's ironic really because that's exactly how I meet her alone and unhappy. Every time we'd see each other I'd become more at peace, it seemed as if my heart only beat for her. She knew it to, what she held in her soft hands, what she still holds….

"Ashley come on it's time" A somber voice came from the hall way of the girls room pulling her from her writing.

"Yeah I'm comin" She mumbled closing her laptop. Why me she thought with a distained look in her eyes. If she could escape out her window she'd surely jump.

"I'll drive you" A red headed women called from the doorway waiting patiently for Ashley to ready her things

"No I'm capable" The sulking girl grabbed the keys and with a fake smile kissed her friends cheek, she never got why Faye stuck around, she thought maybe for the money but it had to be more. She never pried too much though

"I just want you to be safe alright" Faye smiled trying to be a comfort to the girl, she knew Ashley was in a place now that could either heal her or wreck her. She stuck around because she felt an instinct to mother the girl since hers was scarce.

"Two months safe" Ashley found it easier to be a smart ass to people she cared for easier to lose them she guessed

"And I'm proud of you for it…you know"

"I gotta go" Ashley didn't want to hear another confession of the girls admiration for her, it crept her out a little, even though she new it was nothing just the only way the other girl thought she could get in.

"I'll be out by the time you get home" Faye bowed her head as if saying she wanted to stay keep watch over the girl

"Ok…Don't be a stranger" Ashley eyed her car the one that just a short three months ago was totaled she cringed at the thought of what happened that night. The other girl picked up on it, she touched Ashley's shoulder with a gentle hand

"I can drive you if it's…"

"No I got it" And she did well right now anyway, when she got to school that may be another story if she seen that one person she may break.

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"I don't know if I can see her" Spencer standing at the front of her school stood staring out into the parking lot, maybe waiting just to catch a glimpse of Ashley.

"Then stop staring where she parks" Aiden grabbed Spencer by the arm pulling her away from the crowd. They have become rather close lately, not close, close but closer then usual. "Listen maybe you should just talk to her, put it…her behind you" he would love that for her to drop Ashley. Ashley always new he had agenda, plus she simply hated him.

"I can't, I mean I may want to but she…" Spencer could never say it but she always thought it the girl always made a little flicker in her chest. What had happened never mattered to her she still loved the girl with more then her heart. "I just can't, you'll never understand"

"You know she's gonna manipulate you until you have no way out, that's what she does best" The boy was right and she knew it and she didn't care.

"She won't force me into anything"

'I didn't say force"

Spencer shrugged "same thing" her attention went to the parking lot were Madison and some others stood, "to manipulate is to force someone just in a sneaky way…I'm gonna go see ya"

Aiden a little shocked at the exit realized a certain black Porsche pulling in,

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"I told you she would show, she's to absorbed not to" Madison snickered to one of her friends

"I think it's kinda brave ya know…" The blonde cringed as she looked and seen a perturbed Madison

"God why are you so stupid"

"Cause he created you" Madison twirled around to find a smirking Ashley a cigarette in her hand, The two never got a long, one always more jealous then the other. Not really a past between them just a lot of fights and rude rants.

"Funny Davies, wasn't so stupid when he created Spencer though Huh! About her …"

"Finish the sentence and have a foot up your fat latino ass" Ashley was in no mood for her shit not today

Madison snickered "Good one I see your up to game" and with that the girl grabbed her friend and walked away. Ashley stood and smiled dumb ass she thought as she fixed her gaze back to the school. She hoped to see the one person she wanted

"Court ordered huh" The girl jumped when she heard the bellow of one voice she wished she wouldn't have to. A hole would be suitable right about now

"I don't have time for you" Aiden had a thing of showing up when his timing was not wanted, she despised him more then any other maybe it was the time he spent with Spencer she didn't know

"Stay away from her you did enough damage" He coyly remarked before he tried to stomp off but was stopped

"I'll talk to her if I want and you'll do nothing, cause see Aiden I have her heart, you she uses for a casual conversation" Even that was saying a lot the boy was rather dumb and boring why Spencer choose to talk to him she never understood

The boy became rather close to Ashley and started to whisper "No you lost her when you slipped that needle in your arm and then drove her…oh wait I mean almost killed her the night of the party" He snaked back up to his normal level with a smug smile on his face, he thought he won that but little did he know someone was watching his arrogance.

"Shut Up" She knew he was right, she didn't deserve the other girls heart or presence for that matter, but something told her it wasn't to late and she had a chance.

"Hit a nerve did I"

Ashley didn't give him a response or eye contact, he was getting arrogant in his speech and if she stayed any longer he may end up on the ground or in it. She made her way to the guidance office looking inside before she went in. She had to get her schedule since she never made in to the school earlier to receive it. She got a glance of a blonde boy standing with his back turned, Great, this was all she needed to run into another person who wanted her gone.

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Kyla made her way through the halls slowly maneuvering through the crowds of people. She was Ashley's little sister and new to the school, her first year. Her sister always said she would hate it, but from what she saw she liked it all these kids in one place for all the same reason. She was a book worm always had her nose n a book, Ashley commended her on it said she gave her a lot of props for sticking to the books and not to the drugs like she had.

"Damn watch were your goin' four eyes" A boy laughed as he passed her. She didn't let that faze her hell Ashley was her sister and the last couple months were hell, no little name calling was going to let that slow her down.

"Just ignore" Kyla turned to see a blonde boy smiling his blue eyes sparkled like a certain other blonde she knew " He needs to say hurtful things makes himself feel better,…you know compensation for what he doesn't have"

Kyla laughed a little "and what's that glasses"

He laughed and stuck out his hand "I'm Glen"

"Yeah I know who you are my sister dated yours" She watched his gaze fill with realization, that's why she looked so familiar "Gotta go thanks" She waved and walked to her next class, hoping Ashley didn't see that she was told to stay away from anything Carlin related.

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"God I can't be here" Ashley thought as she headed to her car, she gazed back at the school wishing she could all she wanted was to grab Spencer and go tell her how sorry she was and then convince her to stay. It will never happen, her being sober softened her made her weak and always nervous, she even lost her will of being sarcastic and that was her soul. When she sat in the car she never expected to check her mirrors but havin ocean blue eyes staring back at her with a hint of sadness and anger.

She jumped hitting her hand on the window "Fuck, you scared me"

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"I don't know how long she can make it" Faye sat in her car talking to Ashley's mother not like the women really cared about her daughter but she did have a right to know. "She's at school" … "I'm just telling you is all I don't care if you care" She flipped her cell phone closed, how one person could be so cold hearted about her own flesh and blood she never understood.

Faye knows she has to stay close if Ashley relapsed she wouldn't come back from it, she wouldn't let that happen to the younger girl she came to care for. There was only one person who could help Ashley.

She looked down at her phone, only one way to keep her sober. "Mike cancel my flight I think I may stay a bit longer"