"Haymitch, I can't face him! He killed Peeta and now I have to do that with him! Can't we just leave and pretend we forgot?" I whined at Haymitch.
"No sweet heart, you have to go through with it! Or else Snow will kill everybody, like he did to Johanna Mason of district 7!" Haymitch replied trying his best to comfort me, but it wasn't working.
"Oh yeah, I forgot about that. Well maybe we can-" But I was cut off.
"No, we aren't running away with your family! He will find you and kill you!" I let out a sob, I was terrified. First I had to watch Peeta died right before my eyes, and now I have to sleep with the one who took him from me. "Now, go get some sleep swet heart, big big day tomorrow." He said mocking Effie, which brought a chuckle out of me. "Good night." and with that Haymitch walked out of my room to let me get some sleep, which I knew wasn't going to happen. I couldn't believe Snow was making me do this, tomorrow night after the party for the Victors I would have to go to some room Snow booked for us, and do that, I need to have a baby with, him! I feltlike crying at the thought that I would have to let him take me, not Peeta the one I love. But I have to come to fact that Peeta is dead and he isn't coming back. Now I started to cry, because he isn't coming back now matter how much I want him too. So I climbed into bed, and cried myself to sleep.
The next morning I was woken up to frantic knocking, and then the dorr flew open and there stood Effie and Cinna.
"Up, up, up we have big big day!" Effie cried out.
"Okay, I'm up." I said throwing the covers off and sitting up.
"Good, now Cinna is going to get you ready!" and she hurried out.
"Does she have a mental disorder?" I asked Cinna with a laugh.
"Nah, most capitol people are like that." He replied back laughing as well. "Now, how are you?" He asked taking a seat beside me.
"I'm fine." I said looking to my hands.
"Katniss, you don't have to lie to me. You can always tell me the truth." Cinna said wrapping his arm around me.
"Fine, I don't want to do this Cinna, I would rather kill myself! I can't believe Snow is making me do this! He killed Peeta and now he expects me to..." and I cut of my sentence not even wanting to think about it anymore. "Can we just start getting ready?" I asked trying to avoid this conversation more than I already was. Cinna just nodded and started to get me ready for the party.
It took a couple of hours to make sure I looked good enough to show off to the capitol. But when I was done even I had to admit I looked good. Cinna always did an amazing job at making me look pretty.
"Wow!" Was all I was able to say.
"Yeah, now Cato will see how beautiful you are." He said with a smile standing behind me.
"I really don't care what Cato thinks of me!" I snapped turning around to face the still smiling Cinna.
"I know, but make him see that he can't break you, that your still the same strong beautiful girl you are and always will be." with that I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him.
"Thank you so much Cinna." I said still hugging.
"Anything for you my Girl On Fire." he whispered into my ear and I just smiled. "Well Effie and Haymitch want us to be down there in 15 minutes, so i'll come and get you in 10 minutes." and he smiled one last time and walked out. I was left alone to my thoughts. I really did not want to go through with this tonight, I wish I could just run away, as far awat from here as possible. But I can't and I know that. If I do my family will suffer and I couldn't do that to them. So tonight after the party I was going to go to a room with Cato and do that and have his child.
My thoughts were interuptted when Cinna walked back in to get me.
"Snow wants to see you before the party." I felt my heart stop, was he going to give me more orders or just want to make sure everything was still going to go as planned. Hopefully he wanted to make sure everything was still going as planned, because I can't handle anything else. "Come on." and Cinna dragged me to the elevator. "It's going to be fine Katniss, don't be nervous!" He said trying to calm me down, because I was shaking on the ride down.
When the doors opened, there stood Snow.
"Mrs Everdeen follow me please." and he started to walk down the hallway, and I was following him down the hallway to a room. "Go in." he said holding the door open for me. "Take a seat." so I sat down in one of the chairs and waited for him to speak to me.
"what do you want?" I finally snapped, I wanted to get this night over with.
"I was just wanting to make sure that everything was still going to go as planned." He said taking a seat across from me.
"yes everythingis still going to go as planned! Happy your ruining my fucking life!" I said angry now.
"Calm down mrs Everdeen." He said with a forceful tone. So I backed down and listened to what he had to say. "Now the only orders I have for you are to make sure that you and Cato have that baby, but anything else you want, will happen." he said.
"Well than listen now, I don't want Cato to see her until I feel the time is right! I don't want him near me, and the baby is to come home with me not him!" I said still angry.
"What ever you wish." he replied and showed me the way out. So I left without another word and headed to the party.
"So what did he want?" I heard Haymitch ask from behind me.
"To make sure that everything was still going to go as planned." I replied still walking towards the party.
"Okay. Stop." and Haymitch grabbed my arm. "Sweet heart you need to calm down. Tonight you have to pretend to be happy, you have to smile for the cameras and just be cheerful. Got it?" He asked still holding on to me. I just nodded and her released me and let me continue walking. "ready?" he asked as we reached the doors.
"As ever." I replied. And with that Haymitch opened the doors and all I seen was cameras flashing and people screaming my name. "I don't know if I can do this." I whispered as we walked in.
"you have too, remember who your doing this for." He replied, and so I stood taller and walked through the group smiling and waving. I kept this up until we reached the middle of the room and there he stood. Cato, was just standing there wait for, me. I could tell just by the way he looked at me that he wanted to put his hands around my neck until I stopped breathing. But that wasn't going to happen. "Behave." Haymitch said as he walked to Cato then left to go see Effie and Cinna. Me and Cato just looked at each other, no one said a word.
"Congratulations to our Victors Cato Alexander and Katniss Everdeen. Time for the victors dance." Snow announced from his podium. I took another look at Cato then he took a step towards me and grabbed my hand in his then put his other on my waist. I flinched at his touch, I was still scared of his, but nothing feared me more than the fact that he was the one who took Peeta from me.
"You better be able to dance 12." Cato said glaring at me. I just glared back and said nothing as the music started to play. He was lead me, and surprisingly he never let me fall. I could not dance at all and he was helping me. I didn't care though I still hated him more than anything in the world.
The dance went by as slow as ever. It felt like it was never going to end, but when it did everyone clapped and I headed off to my table where Effie, Haymitch and Cinna sat.
"Good show sweet heart." Haymitch said with a chuckle.
"Shut up." snapped and took a seat. "That was terrible, I hate him so much." I complained.
"Whinning won't do you any good Katniss." Cinna said.
"I know, he just, ugh, makes me want to rip my hair out. I would give anything to kill him. To get my revenge for him killing Peeta." I said slumping over at the thought of Peeta.
"I know sweet heart, but you can't!" Haymitch said softly.
The night went by just as slow as the dance did. But now the part of the night I was fearing most was about to being. I was going to have to have sex with Cato, and give birth to his child in 9 months. I don't know how much more of this I can handle. In two days I was going to have to return home to my mother and Prim saying I am pregnant with a murders child. BUt I guess I shouldn't be saying murderer. I am a murderer too. I mean I killed Marvel and some other people, but I didn't want to. Unlike Cato who went in there to kill, and he would have killed me if Snow didn't stop him. The way to the hotel place was short, and as it grew closer I got more and more nervous.
"Everything will be fine dear." Effie said giving me a hug as the car stopped.
"Thanks." I replied knowing that things will not be fine. Who knows what he is going to do to me in there. I gave Effie one last smile before two peace keepers escorted me inside the room. Cato wasn't there yet, which was a small relief. But that relief didn't last long, because soon the door opened and there stood Cato in his suit, just staring at me. The look in his eyes told me he wasn't the least bit nervous, as a matter of fact, it looked like he really wanted this. But I sure didn't.
"I'm going to go shower." I said getting up.
"fine, whatever." Cato said taking a seat on the bed.
I quickly ran into the bathroom and locked the door. I needed as much time as I could before going through with this. So I started the shower and undid my hair. Once my hair was out I undressed and climbed into the warm shower. It was nice to be in the shower after such a stressful night, of interviews, dance and smiling at people I wanted to kill. But I knew I had to get out of the shower eventually, so after about 15 minutes I climbed out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body and unlocked the door. It took me a minute to open the door, but I finally did I was shocked to see Cato standing there only in boxers. I wasn't ready for this.
I did get the idea for this off another story, but I am going my own way with it! I hope you all enjoy it :D