So this is my first fan fiction, and have been dying to show the world! I mean, if I didn't just get this brand new laptop for my birthday yesterday, I might've died of anticipation...

Anyways, I hope you enjoy this fantastic (actually, that's just a matter of an opinion) story, and I do hope you review and whatnot. I would LOVE to know what you think.

And lastly, I do not own The Mortal Instruments! All credit goes to the best author of all time, (again, another opinion) Cassandra Clare, and I do not wish to steal it.

Okay. Now you can read.

Alec POV

This just isn't fair. Why can't I love Magnus? Why can't I express my feelings to him? I can't love him, I know that. But why can't I love him?

I was walking the shores of Lake Lynn when I saw a flash of red hair. It was Clary. She was sitting on the grass, overlooking the beautiful view, sketching it in that sketchpad of hers. I don't know why, but the thought of her all alone, with no one, pained me. She looked sad; her face usually filled with her joy and happiness gone and replaced with a gloomy gaze and melancholy eyes. I wonder what could have possibly gotten her all upset. Hesitantly, I walked over to her. She seemed to have heard me and looked up at me. "Hey."

"Hey."I sat down beside her on the green grass. I leaned back my hands touching the ground, my legs brought up. Glancing over at her, I asked, "What's wrong?"

She laughed without much humor. "There's a lot of things wrong. It would take me all day to explain."

"Lucky for you, we have all day."

"Alright then." She set her sketchbook aside and turned her body towards me, her legs crossed. I heard Clary take a deep breath, and she started to explain. "Have you ever felt," she hesitated, which surprisingly hurt me. I was upset that she didn't think she could tell me everything. "That you don't love someone the way you should?" Her gaze wasn't on me, it was on something in the distance; something only she could see.

"Clary, where is this coming from? Is this about Simon...?"

She looked at me then. "No, not Simon." She replied softly.

"Then..." That's when the thought of realization hit me. "This is about Jace, isn't it?"

Clary chuckled. "That obvious, huh?" Her eyes were sad and teary. One tear rolled down her cheek, and surprising Clary and myself, I reached forward and brushed the tear away.

"Clary, you don't have to explain this to me."

"I have no one else to explain it to. And sometimes it's...more comforting to have someone be there for you." She smiled a sad smile. "And you're the only one available."

I was shocked. "I am?"

She sighed. "Simon is either with Izzy or Maia; Izzy is always with Simon when he's not with Maia; Maia the same way. And Jace...well, that's just awkward."

I laughed without meaning too. I was about to apologize when I realized Clary was laughing too. "So, if it makes you feel any better, I get your pain."

I chuckled at her surprise face. "You do?"

"Well, I was in love with my brother, too, remember?" She tensed at the word 'too' like she didn't need to be reminded of her incest. "Sorry, I didn't mean-"

"It's okay. I know what you meant."

I slowly let out a long breath. "What I meant was: you eventually get over it. I did. Though, I can't say you find someone else to love..."

"But don't you love Magnus?"

I looked her in the eyes so she would know what I'm saying is sincere and not just a way to make her feel better. "I thought I did. But I don't. I don't know why, but I just can't. And I know he loves me, but I just don't feel the same way! I know this isn't fair to him, so...so I want to call it off. For his sake."

Clary blinked. "Alec, why are you telling me all this?"

I smiled. "I don't know. There's just something about you..." I stopped when I saw her face expression: disbelief, surprised, and astonished. "I'm sorry."

"What are you sorry for?"

Now I blinked. "I... I don't know."

She laughed and I blushed.

We sat there talking for hours. There really was something about her that made the time flow when I was with her. We laughed, chuckled, and explained each other's problems. I never had this feeling when I was with Magnus... Wait! Did I just compare her to Magnus?

Once I realized the sun was setting, I offered to walk her back to Amatis' house who she has been staying with. We said our goodbyes and I walked off thinking about a girl with red hair and green eyes...

OMG! Sorry for such a short chapter. I first started writing these on my iPod so on there it seems MUCH longer than this. I promise, I will try to make them longer, but that probably will not happen until the fifth chapter for I am currently writing the fourth one. Though, I beg of you to trust me and to put faith in me because I will try and I do know how frustrating it can get when authors don't do what they are supposed to do:

1. UPDATE!2. Please the readers.3. Keep their promises. (Though, I'm sure that goes for everybody- not just writers.)4. etc..

Anywho, to say sorry for it being short, I will update all three chapters tonight, and hopefully that will make up for it. :). You should be happy right about now. I'm doing this just. for. YOU! JK... I was going to do that anyway.

Oh, and don't forget to review. I could really use the self-esteem booster and the help. Yes, I do take constructive criticism.

So, yea.

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