What it Means to Love You

"I'm not sure what scares me more,

that you will never start loving me,

or that I will never stop loving you."bv

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It was that time of year again, the time of year that he hated and loved more than anything. The time of year where he could see her face again. School time. Summer had ended and hell had begun once again. Luckily for Rick Grimes, it was his senior year and he'd never have to step foot in this place ever again. King County High. He hated this place, funnily enough though, he loved the people attending. His fellow peers and classmates were the only thing that made getting up and coming to school worth it. Especially her. Michonne Clovis.

Rick hadn't seen her since junior year ended, she and her family always went away for the summer. Spending their time in lavish hotels around the world. He still talked to her almost everyday but text messages and short phone calls weren't enough for him. Rick couldn't wait to see her. The girl he was desperately and hopelessly in love with since they met all those years ago in middle school. But she didn't see him that way, and knew nothing of his true feelings.

He wanted to be more than her best friend, her buddy, her shoulder to cry on. Her standby.

She would sometimes talk to him about who she was crushing on at the time, and it was painful listening to her talk about that kind of stuff, but being as tragically in love as he was, he'd take anything she was willing to offer him. Rick knew that she couldn't be blamed for this. He was the coward in the whole thing.

He sighed aloud thinking of his current situation.

He was brought out of his head when he heard a familiar voice. A very annoying voice.

"Ricky!"

He sighed. Why did he have to run into her first. Well at least that meant if she was here, Michonne wasn't far. Andrea was her best friend and he had no doubt that she was looking for her right about now.

Rick acknowledged her with a simple nod then spoke. "Andrea"

"Andrea" she mocked his southern drawl "What the hell kind of greeting is that? I haven't seen you for the whole summer! You should be excited to see me!" She giggled

"Yea, yea."

Andrea started talking about something but he didn't know what the hell she was saying because it was like time stood still when he spotted Michonne walking towards them through the crowd with the most beautiful smile on her face. Andrea waved her hand in his face trying to get his attention until she turned to see what he was staring at so intently. She side eyed him, then slowly a knowing smirk appeared on her face. She folded her arms over her chest and whispered to him. "Easy, lover boy. Do you want the whole school to know about your pitiful unrequited crush?" Rick just scowled at her. Andrea just shrugged ignoring his scowl. She and Rick had been friends for a really long time and they had a unusual relationship. If you didn't know them, it would be easy to think they actually hated each other. That was far from the truth. Before Andrea could further tease him, Michonne had reached them.

"Michonne hunny!" Andrea said jumping on her back wrapping her arms around her neck nearly choking her.

"Hey Drea, I've been looking for you." She smiled. "But get off of my back, you're heavy." Andrea's jaw dropped as she got of Michonne's back and asked her did she just indirectly call her fat to which Michonne just rolled her eyes and laughed. Rick stood awkwardly by the lockers waiting for her to acknowlege his presence. He just looked down staring at his shoes. Michonne ruffled his hair trying to get his attention.

Rick really hated when she did that, it made him feel even more pathetic about his feelings for her. It's like she put him in the friend zone and locked him there. Rick stepped back from her so that she would stop. She frowned when he moved from her. His mood was souring quick. Andrea scoffed "Who pissed in your cheerios, cowboy?" He of course ignored her. "I'm gonna head to class early." he said walking off without waiting for a reply. Michonne stood with a frown on her face, confused as to what happened. Andrea was a little less sympathetic towards him. She put both hands around her mouth and shouted "Nerd!" Making sure everyone in the hallway heard her.

...

Rick was so annoyed with himself for overreacting. She was just being friendly and he stormed off like a child. He just couldn't help himself. He was hoping that this would finally be the year that he got her to notice him as more than a friend. It was his own fault for expecting her to feel the same way he did. He went outside as he needed some fresh air to try and cool off.

Rick ran his hand over his face in frustration. First day of school was already a nightmare for him.

"Brother!" Shane yelled across the schoolyard "We been looking for you, you scrawny bastard!" Shane was with Daryl, Glenn, and Abraham. "Why the hell is your face like that man? Class ain't even started yet and you're already depressed."

"I'm good." was all he said

"Yea whatever man, but enough of that. Have you seen Jessie and her army of skanks?" Shane had a goofy grin on his face

"C'mon Shane, don't be so rude. They're ladies" Glenn interrupted. Abraham just side eyed him and keep his crass comments to himself.

"There they are." Daryl pointed to the group of girls that consisted of Jessie, Karen, Lori, Chelle, and Clara.

"Damn, their shorts get shorter every year. That's amazing."

Daryl scoffed "Well ain't none of 'em got no ass, so it ain't like they got shit to see." Abraham and Shane laughed loudly clutching their stomachs. Glenn looked at them disapprovingly before quietly agreeing with Daryl and that made them all laugh even louder.

Their laughter was so loud that it attracted the attention of the girls who were now walking over to them. "Hey Rick." Jessie said in a flirty voice pushing her hair behind her ear smiling at him. "Me and Pete broke up over the summer." He just looked at her wondering why she was telling him this. They weren't friends and they barely spoke.

"Ok." he shrugged. She looked embarrassed, then opened her mouth to say something but no words came out. Chelle came from behind Jessie and spoke for her friend. "Look you smug prick, Jessie here is letting you know that she's available. Don't be a dick."

"And Rick here is letting you know that he doesn't want to pour Bisquick with your flat assed friend." Abraham replied

"Hey stop." Rick said over Daryl and Shane's snickering "Look, Jessie, I'm not interested ok?"

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The girls stormed into the school building headed for the senior lockers "Who the hell do they think they are?" Jessie asked herself aloud. She was breathing hard and had her hands placed firmly on her hips. Her friends tried to calm her down by telling her that she was too good for Rick anyways and that it would be an honor to date her. She looked to her left and saw Michonne talking to Andrea, Maggie, Sasha, and Rosita. She glared at the back of Michonne's head and stalked over to her harshly turning her around to face her.

"Michelle, do me a favor and tell your friend, Rick, that he doesn't know who he's messing with. I can make his senior year hell!"

Michonne was stunned to say the least. She looked over to her friends who all wore the same expression as she did. All except for Andrea who just looked pissed off.

Andrea was very overprotective of Michonne. "First of all, bitch" she started taking a step forward "Don't come walking over here interrupting our conversation thinking you're hot shit." she said taking another step until she was in Jessie's face "Second of all, her name is Michonne!" then she pushed Jessie so that she wasn't in her face anymore "And lastly, if you have something to say to Rick, there he is." Andrea said pointing to Rick who was now coming back into the school building with his friends. A small crowd started surrounding them trying to get the girls to fight.

Jessie's eyes got watery and she ran away through the crowd, her friends following behind.

"Damn man we missed a fight!" Shane said running through the small crowd

"Relax Shane, no one was fighting" responded Michonne rolling her eyes. Searching through the crowd for Rick. When she spotted him she turned to her friends telling them that she'd be right back.

"Rick." she called in a soft voice "Come with me." she said grabbing his hand leading him somewhere that the could talk. Grabbing his hand was no big deal for her. He was her best friend after all. When she found somewhere that wasn't littered with people she stopped and faced him.

"Are you mad at me?" she questioned "Because Andrea said you were mad at me, and I don't understand why."

Fucking Andrea

"No. I'm not mad at you Michonne. Andrea doesn't know what she's talking about."

She smiled hearing that he wasn't mad at her "Good, because I have something I really want to say to you. I haven't even told the girls yet, so you should be happy you're the first I'm telling." she said still smiling and it made him smile too. He felt good knowing that he was the first one she was letting in on her big secret. Whatever it was. "Dont freak out ok? It's...A pretty big deal."

He tilted his head and asked "Ok what's the big secret?"

She leaned to his ear and whispered words that made his heart drop, and not in a positive way. The smile quickly faded off of his face and his brows furrowed as he just stared at her.

"What?" he had to make sure that he heard her right. He was almost certain that his ears were betraying him.

Michonne sighed loudly "Since when, did you become deaf Rick?" she joked "I said, I'm pregnant." she whispered a bit louder. His ears weren't betraying him

"What?"

"Rick! What the hell-"

"Why? By who? What the fuck Michonne?"

"Shhh! Be quiet!" said said sternly "And it's Mike's"

"Mike? Your ex? Are you stupid? Did you forget how he cheated on you and how he constantly treated you like shit?" he snapped. His temper was finally overflowing. "Did you forget about how he bragged to the whole fucking school about deflowering you? Huh? Did you fucking forget?"

"Rick calm do-"

"NO!" he shouted gathering the attention of a few students who were walking by "I'm not going to fucking calm down! Why didn't you tell me you were back together with that son of a bitch?"

"I was going to but-"

"But what?" he asked "But what?" he asked again before she could answer. He knew that he was being harsh but he was honestly hurt by the news. Not only for himself but for her. This whole thing would throw her plans for her future off track and that bothered him. He cared about her and it seemed like she didn't care about herself. How could she be so reckless?

"It wasn't planned." she admitted quietly. She had tears in her eyes, she hated when he yelled, especially at her. "We didn't mean to. It just happened."

Rick sighed trying to calm himself down. "Does he know?" Rick asked and she shook her head no. "Well I hope you're ready to take this on by yourself, because as soon as you tell him, he's going to deny it and never speak to you again.

"And you?"

"What about me?"

"Are you ever going to speak to me again?"

Rick gave her an amused laugh. "Does it matter?"

"Of course it does Rick." she said, looking at him with desperate eyes. She knew he'd be mad but she didn't expect him to take the news this poorly. "You're not being fair."

"I'm not being fair?" he asked tilting his head again. "What's not fair is being in love with you, when you obviously don't give a damn about me!" The secret was out, he said what he had been hiding for so long. There was no going back now.

Michonne just looked at him in horror and shock. When she was about to respond the bell rung.

"I gotta go to class. Don't bother finding me on lunch. We don't have to be friends anymore."

Michonne put one hand over her heart and the other on the wall and she slid to the floor with tears runnimg down her face.

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A/N

Teen pregnancy fic? Yes sir

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