Have you ever seen the person you love most die right in front of you, watching as the light in their eyes faded and their heart slowly stopped?

Have you ever held on to anything as tightly as you held onto their arm, screamed as loudly, begged as hard for them not to leave you?

Have you ever felt as if your heart stopped when their hand went limp in yours, when their eyes slid shut, and when they finally slipped away?

I have.

Have you ever watched as your best friend laughed a crazy laugh, cheering as she died, and preparing to fight whoever else spoke to him without acknowledging his power?

Have you ever fought as hard, struggling to achieve revenge while still not wanting to hurt the man you used to know the best?

Have you ever wanted to give up as much, staring at the two bodies that he had stolen the life from and wonder how he could kill the girl he loved?

I have.

And have you ever felt as hopeless as you saw the madness slowly leave his eyes, leaving behind a cold horror?

Have you ever wondered why this happened, as he looks at his victims in shock, absorbing his terror at the fact that he was the one who did this to them?

Have you ever cried as much as when you held onto her shattered corpse, while he did the same to the one who he had given his heart to and then killed?

I have.

And on that day where the moon laughed and jeered at me, where my partner and her best friend were betrayed by someone they had known forever, where two lives were stolen away because of madness, I lost my sanity.

Two girls lay in their own puddles of blood, two hearts ceased to beat, two futures crumbled away.

Two boys bowed in grief, two pairs of hands stained with their loves' blood, two faces shining with tears.

Four kids fallen victim to insanity, two dead, one insane, and one possessed.

Maka was dead. Tsubaki was dead. Black*Star had killed them. The Black Blood had taken over him.

My three friends, all gone. And I couldn't do anything. I couldn't stop Black*Star from losing his mind, I couldn't protect the girls, I couldn't face my own devil and destroy the one haunting my friend. I couldn't seize my sanity before it was gone.

So I'll ask this one more time.

Have you ever lost your reasons to live?

I have.

Ok yeah I know. Depressing but whatever. I don't feel very happy right now, and the computer was free so I crossed my eyes and gathered up my feelings and then this happened. If you couldn't tell, this is in Soul's P.O.V. so … yeah. Anyways, I don't own Soul Eater and if I did, I wouldn't be as depressed as I am now. I hope you enjoy and please don't mind my lack of enthusiasm with this note, I'd probably pump out a happier story if I got nice reviews. And to make myself feel better, I'll go eat some candy.

DON'T BE DEPRESSED IT WORRIES YOUR FRIENDS!