Trilogy Title: I Need You to Need Me (1/3)

Title: No Pleasure Without Pain

Rating: R

Disclaimer: No own, Am Broke

Pairing: Sam/Will

Summary: Four years after many things have happened and Sam is needed to make Will feel again.

Warning: Um…I am hesitant to say this could be considered PWP because there is a plot and it is important to the story however if you don't have time you are not required to read the first Trilogy- I Want You to Want Me.

"Your destroying your self Will, stop being so stupid your daughter needs you." The young man who had once been a lover of Will Lennox spoke angrily at the mourning solider.

"I should never let her convince me to go to the city, I could have stopped it Sam, if I had just been faster…" Will said what he had been repeating over the last four days as he mourned the loss of his wife. He had been hurt as well, his left leg would never fully heal the doctor said because the muscles were not growing back correctly. Annabelle who was eight years old and would have been starting third grade in the fall had lost her left ear from the explosion and her left eye was severely damaged. Sam had come as quickly as possible with Bumblebee. Bumblebee was now trying to convince Ironhide that a complete vendetta and suicide mission against the newly formed and surprisingly strong Decepticon army was not going to help anyone especially Will.

Sam was frustrated and tired as well as saddened by the state of Will. Will hadn't showered or slept in over 48 hours and the doctors and nurses, even the psychiatrist had given up on him. Sam couldn't think of anything to do to get Will out of his slump so he did something spontaneous. He slapped Will hard against his cheek feeling the wet tears on his hands as he looked at it reddening from the pain. Will seemed to be surprised out of his self-loathing long enough to look at him as if he had seen him for the first time in his life. His eyes brightened and he looked around at himself realizing where he was and what he had been doing.

"I'm sorry Sam, thank you for that." Will said attempting a smile.

"You need to take a shower buddy and get a new set of clothes." Sam said soothingly smiling back encouragingly.

Will nodded and got up slowly leaning heavily on Sam's shoulder for support they moved into the hospital and down the hall. Sam met Will's nurse at the door to Will's private room. "Miss could you bring a new set of clothing for him."

"Wow you finally got him up." The nurse said smiling friendly. "Sure thing son, would you like any help?"

"No I think he can handle himself enough to wash, can't you?" Sam said looking at the man leaning against his body. Their had been a silent agreement between the two men to never speak of the incidents that led to Sam realizing his true feelings for Bumblebee. However as Will leaned into his body and breathed against his neck, his body would not allow the memories to fade quick enough.

"Yeah I'm strong enough to not need assistance nurse, but thanks for the offer." Will said smiling sweetly at the young women and winking.

The nurse giggled and turned away from the two men and said over her shoulders. "I'll get those clothes for you Mr. Lennox."

"Does Ironhide know you flirt with your nurses?" Sam teased as he helped Will into the small shower stall.

"He doesn't care." Will said with more anger then Sam thought he meant to have in the statement. Sam suddenly became curious about Ironhide and Will's relationship in the past four years. He wondered if they had continued the relationship at all since the incident two weeks after his 21st birthday. "It doesn't matter we've grown apart in the last four years. He does like Annabelle though they are...were almost inseparable if Ironhide hadn't been so close Annabelle would have been killed as well." Will said his voice going to a whisper as he thought about the incidents that led up to where he was.

Sam was about to speak but their was a knock on the door and he turned opening it. The nurse seemed to be surprised that he was still there and a little disappointed. However she quickly hid her feelings behind a fake smile and handed him a new set of clothes for Will. "Thank you." Sam said as he took the clothes and laid them out on the hospital room chair.

"Sam could you help me?" Will called from the bathroom.

Sam had feared this might happen. He swallowed nervously and tried to keep his erection in check as he stepped once again into the bathroom/shower on his way locking the door to the room. Will had his shirt off showing the large bruises and marks from the fight he had been in before he had been injured badly by the explosion. Blood rushed towards his groin as Sam's body reacted to Will's naked torso.

Slowly Sam walked towards Will hoping that he was not going to ask him to take off the rest of his clothes. "Could you help me with my shoes and pants I can't get them off over the cast they put on my leg." Sam had no such luck.

Kneeling in between Will's leg's since his left one was outstretched the length of the small shower because of the cast, Sam untied Will's shoes trying to hide the shaking in his hands and the growing bulge in his pants. As he pulled off his socks his hands rubbed against Will's feet, he tried to ignore the slight gasp he heard from Will, not looking up for fear he would see what he felt on Will's face.

However his next task required him to unbutton Will's pants. The action brought back memories of his drunken 21st birthday party and his hands began to shake even more. He was surprised out of his thoughts when a large callused hand took his shaking hand and pressed it to the growing bulge in Will's pants. They both groaned at the heat that was felt through the fabric. Sam looked up at Will who was watching his face with curiosity and interest, there was also a question. Will's other hand came to Sam's face cupping his cheek and slowly pulling him up.

It didn't take long for Sam to move on his own and before he could name one good reason he shouldn't be allowing himself to give-in, his lips pressed against Will's warm mouth. Lips opened immediately, moans were heard deep in each other's throats and hands began to move on their own. The tongues retraced their steps four years later relearning each point that made the other gasp and press closer.

Sam's hand on Will's groin had not stayed still for long quickly after their lips touched it began to open his pants. Pushing underneath and grabbing on tightly massaging the arousal and smiling as Will's body reacted by arching into his body. His other hand moved to his back tracing the intricate scars old and new formed from many battles past and present. Will's hands were not idle either, he rubbed against Sam's neck reminding both of the mark he had made and then massaging underneath his shirt and finally reaching his upper chest where he twisted and pinched until Sam was moaning as much as he was.

Everything seemed to be moving so quickly that they had forgotten about the shower completely. However Sam broke the kiss taking in large breaths to try and get his heart to start beating again. He smiled down at the kiss-swollen lips but turned away from the man. "Sam what?" Will asked but silenced himself as Sam slowly pulled his shirt over his head showing off the flexing muscles of his back. He wasn't as muscular as Will had been at his age but he still worked out and it showed. Then as tantalizingly slow as his shirt, Sam removed his pants shaking his hips as he stepped out of them. He picked them up and placed them on the stool that sat outside of the shower area.

He had planned to kneel between Will's thighs and continue his ministrations on Will's body, Will had other plans. Even if Will was immobile it didn't mean he couldn't move quickly, he grabbed Sam's arm and pulled him forward. The bench he sat on was low enough so that when Sam stood in front of him, his groin was at his mouth. Will did not hesitate and engulfed Sam's member completely feeling it hit the back of his throat. He then moaned knowing the vibrations would help Sam reach his release.

Sam struggled to stand as Will continued to suction then lick at his member blowing over top the slit then engulfing it again. However Sam didn't feel like he was being useful he wanted to pleasure Will as well. So he forced himself to push on Will's shoulders forcing him to stop. Sam then proceeded to take off Will's pants massaging his thighs and legs but never touching his erection. Then he sauntered over to the shower head and turned on the water, standing underneath of it allowing the water to wash over his body. He laid down on the wet tile indicating that Will was to lay on top of him.

Will slowly moved off the bench letting the water flow over his body and lay carefully over Sam's body making sure he didn't hit Sam with his legs. He then proceeded to continue what he had started with better leverage and his leg now on the floor he felt better supported. Sam smiled and licked at the tip of Will's erection and then slid his mouth half-way up and then let it fall out again teasing Will as he felt the suction falter slightly around his own member, then he felt it disappear all together.

"Sam don't tease." Will demanded.

Sam smiled but didn't respond he proceeded to continue what he had been doing never engulfing it completely. When he heard Will moan and then felt a slight nip at the tip of his own erection he changed his tactics. He brought his arms around Will's ass and pushed him down onto his mouth, moving him in and out as he fucked his mouth. However he also allowed his hands to wander and it didn't take too long for them to move over Will's cleft.

Will couldn't deny that he enjoyed Sam taking charge it reminded him of how he felt when Ironhide had pleasured him and he had subsequently pleasured Ironhide. When he felt something move over his ass his body reacted by pushing against it automatically remembering that he had been curious about what it would feel like. He had wondered and had immediately pushed the thought to the back of his mind trying to forget it for he was always curious when Ironhide had been helping him never with Sarah. However at the moment he needed to feel alive and he tried to convince himself it wasn't to try and remember Ironhide when he used to touch him.

Sam pushed a finger deep inside trying not to jump with joy, he never thought Will would allow him to penetrate him, he had enjoyed Will inside of him and if they had moved to more intimate pleasure he had resigned to allow Will to fuck him again. However with Will now pushing against two of his fingers and begging for a third his prospects had changed. The water was making it easy to push the three fingers in quickly and the sucking was all but forgotten as Will began to moan loudly. They changed positions, Sam wanted to make sure Will was as comfortable as possible. He got up and turned off the shower.

As quickly as possible, for they couldn't take their hands off each other and continued to kiss and touch, Sam helped Will to the cot. Will laid down and Sam moved in between his legs. Raising his foot into the holder above the bed. Sam slowly moved into Will's body watching his face contort into pain and then slowly watched as pleasure overwhelmed his face and body. Sam was cautious and wanted to stay still inside of him for a few moments however Will would not have it. He moved his hips making Sam moan.

"Don't make so much noise the nurse will get jealous and call the doctor." Will was able to say as Sam moved slightly and leaned over to lick and play with Will's ear. He muffled his moans in the pillow as Will gasped but kept quiet.

They kept the pace slow but hard and it took only a few moments before they simultaneously found release. Sam though exhausted knew he would have explaining to do to the two Autobot's waiting outside the hospital so he got up. He kissed the slumbering Captain on the forehead before he got dressed and left.

As he walked down the hall he heard two women talking. "Have you seen the new guy he is a captain or something, totally hot!"

"Sorry Dallas but he's already taken."

"How do you know?"

"Trust me, he wasn't interested in me helping him take a shower, he got his guy friend to help instead. He is taken."