Sorrow's Memories
One-Shot--Rain pelted my exposed skin but I didn't care. If I caught pneumonia I would welcome death. I needn't live any longer. OOC Kai TyKa
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"Just because someone holds you does not mean that it is love. Just because someone is kind does not mean it is love. Love is only seen the way you interpret it."(Kai POV)
I was running away.
Rain pelted my exposed skin but I didn't care. If I caught pneumonia I would welcome death. I needn't live any longer. Every time I find something to hold dear it always leaves me. A fleeting memory one could say.
This time, he was with him I couldn't believe it. Of all people him. I felt my heart being ripped out as I tried to ask what was going on. My whole world came crashing down around me. Hitting me with everything it had as my life crumbled away.
Without Tala what else do I have?
My name is Hiwatari Kai.
Tala was the object of my affection until I saw my red head with…him…Bryan. I knew that something like this was going to happen. I knew it.
I ran and ran until I could run no more and collapsed in the middle of the street. The street in question was empty of anything, no cars, no random people trying to get home. The sun hadn't set yet and wasn't going to for a little longer I found it a bit odd that no one was out at all. Then again I did not care. I had nothing left. I was begging for a fourteen wheeler to come by and scatter my body all over the road.
I then completely broke down. I began to cry as I hugged myself, rocking back and fourth trying to understand why Tala did this to me. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see a pair of midnight eyes.
"Takao…" I whispered. "He…he…" I stuttered as I realized whom was standing in front of me now. He held an umbrella over us and looked deeply concerned.
He smiled lightly as he knelt down to my level. "I know…" Takao stated. "I heard you slam the door when you left the hotel. Tala came out and told me what you had seen." He sounded hurt. "I hope you don't mind much but I beat the shit out of him for it."
I looked up at him surprised, I've never heard Takao use that kind of language before; nonetheless, say he's beaten someone physically.
"I can't…I can't believe I didn't see it sooner." I said. "It was so clear but I was ignorant to it."
"People can do crazy thing when their in love. They could ignore obvious signs that the other doesn't really love them and they can ignore what others may say." Takao said softly.
"I didn't want to believe it." I said shaking my head. "I put myself into denial, because I loved him so much. But I was just a toy he could throw away when he was done."
"Come on…" Takao said. "Lets get you inside. I don't need you dieing on me."
"Why not?" I said not moving. "Everyone's got someone, but I was just a toy."
"No…" Takao said standing up and holding out a hand. "You have someone too."
I looked up at him. His eyes were full of concern and…love? Did he love me?
"Takao?" I said slowly. "Why are you trying to save me?"
"Because," he paused. "I love you."
It felt like thousands of pounds had been taken off of my heart when he uttered those three words. I felt every pain vanish and the bad memories turn into nothing but a dull movie in my head.
Takao stood there with his hand outstretched and waiting for me to come. "You don't need to say anything Kai." He smiled. "I just want you to know no matter what, that I love you and will always be there to help you. You will always have my shoulder to cry on."
"Ta…Takao…?" I said slowly. I looked back to the ground and then up again. I was crying again. I hate crying with a passion like none other but this one time I'll let him see me cry. I'll let him know how weak inside I really am. How much I really need someone to care for me. How much of a child I still was inside my heart.
It all ever wanted was for someone to say those words to me with feeling behind them. Tala's soft whispers were nothing like Takao's. Takao's whispers were like a warm breeze on a spring day. He had a warmth that radiated off of him that I could feel from countries away.
The tears slide down my cheek as I took hold of Takao's hand. He help me to my feet and we stood for a while. I still held his hand tightly. I was afraid that if I let it go he would vanish. I was crying so badly now that I began to hiccup, that was when he hugged me. He slowly rubbed my back trying to calm me down and make me feel better.
"I'm here for you Kai." He said lovingly. "I've always been here."
I began to remember things that Takao had done for me over the years. He was always the first one to hold out his hand to help me no matter how much I had betrayed him or the team. He never gave up on me no matter what the case.
"Thank you." I said as I hugged him in return. We stood there for a while and the rain began to stop and the sun set made it look like the sky was on fire. We stood there for a while in silence, almost like we know what the other was thinking. I was thinking how much of a fool I was for not realizing how much he loved me until now.
"I'm sorry I didn't see it sooner Takao." I whispered.
"Its okay." He lulled. "I would have waited until the end of the world."
"I…I love you too." I said softly.
"I know." He said. We stood there a bit longer then he finally got me off the road and we started back to the hotel. I was still a bit upset but I knew that I felt better then I had in years. This feeling only came because of Tala, so I must thank him before I kick his ass.
Takao's hand was still holding mine like a life support and all I could think of was how lucky I was to have someone as tolerant as him. If he wasn't, I may be dead right now. He told me that he would be there for me no matter what and I knew that it was true.
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Well how was that? Give me some input people, and if you all like it I may think about making it more then a one-shot. If you want. See ya.
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Kaiyuku-kun