3 a.m

Ding

It was 3 a.m

Half asleep; I looked up, not expecting to see anyone on messenger this early in the morning. But sure enough, the little pop up warning bubble came up, telling me that someone had just logged on.

Tim is now online

Tim….I hadn't heard or seen that name in a long time….

It had only been a few weeks since I had "Come back from the dead", as Bart had put it. But even so, in that time, I hadn't had any contact with anyone from the Teen Titans, other than Bart, in that time. Was I afraid? No….I couldn't be afraid…what could I have POSSIBLY been afraid of?

Being denied acceptance. Fear they might have of me.

Damn…don't you just hate that little voice in your head? Never there when you need it, but always there to kick your ass back into reality…

ANYWAY…like I was saying….It had been a long time since I had seen, or even heard from Tim, so seeing him on the TT messenger sent my heart racing at a hundred miles an hour. In the millisecond it took me to reacted, I had already moved the mouse over and clicked on the "log out" button.

Did he notice me online? No…I logged of right as he got on…

I sat there for a second, trying to think about whether or not I had done the right thing. Maybe I should have just stayed on and talked to him…

No…it would have just scared the shit out of him, and all of TT would be trying to get a confirmation as to whether it was really ME, or if it was someone else hacking into my account.

Too late. Before I could finish my thought, my phone started to vibrate.

Call from Cassie…should I answer it?...no…its to soon…ill wait to see if she leaves a message…

The phone stopped vibrating. After what seemed like an eternity, the phone beeped; alerting me that I had a voice mail.

Ok…just listen to it….nothing to be freaked out about…maybe she miss-dialed…my name is RIGHT next to Cissie's in her contact book….maybe she made a mistake….

BEEP

"Hi, Its Cassie. I just got a text from Robin, no idea HOW he got my number…damn Bat family…ALWAYS have their freakishly stalker-ish way of finding things out…ANYWAY-"

Shes so sexy when she rambles….UHG! PAY ATTENTION!

"-that you were online or if maybe it was just a mistake….Connor…I miss you…the first few months after you were…gone…I would call your phone at night…just so I could hear your voice again…"

Damn it…she's crying…FUCK! Even when she doesn't know I'm alive, I still manage to make her cry….I'm a shitty boyfriend….FUCK! PAY ATTENTION!

"please….if your there…call me back…UHG…what am I saying? Maybe this is wishful thinking…Wow, I JUST quoted Taylor Swift. Well, I guess that's not BAD…IF your into country I guess…ANYWAY…Please call me back when- ….IF you get this message….I love you…"

Click

I couldn't think. All I could do was stare at the wall, the phone still in my hand.

"I love you too…."

Note: This is just kind of a one-shot, but I plan to write another, longer, story that will be a continuation…this is more of a preview for what will come