You cause this pain for yourself.
You don't care that it isn't you he wants. You feel for him in a way you've never felt for anyone. That's how it's been ever since you first saw him. You felt like you knew him, like you loved him, like you belonged to him.
People say he's dangerous, he's bad for you. They say that he'll hurt you, but you know better than that.
Besides, if Axel's the fire, you wouldn't mind getting burned.
In his mind, you aren't you. You're Axel's substitute for him. It's his lips Axel wants to be kissing, him Axel imagines touching, him.
But you'll be anyone as long as you can be together.
Roxas. It's Roxas's name that he whispers in your ear, Roxas he says "I love you" to, Roxas.
It causes so much pain that you're sure you must be some kind of masochist for wanting him at all.