She is an angel, an angel amidst devils. She made me feel, feel like a person again. But I know I am not. And she knows she isn't either. We weren't supposed to feel anything for each other, but we did. I was in charge of guarding her, and I did my job well.
I would watch her as she drew my best friend for hours and hours, touching the finish product and smiling. Somewhere along the line I think I fell in love with her. I wouldn't know, this feeling is new to me. We would sit on opposite sides of her long table, just staring at each other. Neither of us spoke to each other. It wasn't needed.
I remember one day she asked me to draw her. I was confused by her request, she knew I couldn't draw. But still, she told me too, so I did. I drew her as she was, or as I saw her. I surrounded her with darkness. I made her the figure of light, with her beautiful blonde hair and blue eyes. She was like the sun. It always follows the night.
She started talking to me, about what she was feeling. At first I didn't understand, she told me about all these feelings, of happiness and sadness, and all I knew was this one I had been harboring inside my chest. She cried once, she cried and told me that she felt horrible about what she was doing, and how she was replacing Kairi. I tried to understand, but I couldn't.
She drew pictures for me, pictures of her emotions. She put so much time into the pictures, it was hard to find an occasion to talk to her, but after they were finished, she would explain them. She started with anger, telling me it was when your head feels like it's about to explode, and you just want to hit something or someone. I knew it. She went on and on, through all the emotions.
I felt incomplete, I hadn't felt half of the emotions she had described, but she didn't mind. She looked at me days after she explain the emotions, and told me she thought we were becoming human. She went on to explain about the feelings we were keeping inside. Nobodies didn't have feelings. We did.
We weren't Nobodies.
The next couple of days, she seemed happy. Always smiling, even dancing a little. My chest felt strange when I would watch her, but I liked it. I would come to her room and sit with her for hours on end, just watching her dance and sing. I loved the feeling I had. I liked thinking I wasn't a nobody.
Then Larxene came. She came and destroyed it all. I was going to see my love, and I watched as Larxene exited her room, smiling darkly. She walked by me and patted my head, muttering something about enjoying my pet. I felt anger. I wanted to kill her for anything that might have happened.
I walked in and saw her. She was on the ground, holding her legs, a white ball in the middle of the floor. I could hear her cry. I approached her, and I tried to touch her, but she slapped my hand away. My chest felt cold, and hollow, sadness. I think I felt sadness.
She told me that she wasn't a nobody, I felt overjoyed. I leaned in to embrace her, to tell her I was happy for her, but she once again rejected me. She told me she was a witch. A dirty witch who was doomed to a life of exile. I was confused.
She told me she couldn't see me anymore. I was confused. She told me she was doomed to a life different to nobodies. She was doomed to live without love forever, and doomed to hurt all that loved her. She told me to leave, and I refused. I couldn't leave her like that. I would never. I loved her.
I kept coming over, to see her, to see her dance and smile. But she stopped. She sat on her bed now. Just sat, starring at the wall, tears in her eyes. And everyday she would ask me to stop coming. Each day my visits would get shorter, till I would only stick my head in to check on her.
Now I sit in front of her door. I can't help but stay. I am in love with her. I am in love with a Nobody Witch. I am in love with Namine.