Sam's thoughts – Tag to Upgrades & Divide and Conquer
I saw the look on your face. The frustration as the realization dawned on you that you were going to have to break your one rule and leave me. I heard the rod as it beat against the lock compartment and I watched you as you tore the door off and then you beat inside. Hoping, begging, praying that somehow somewhere there was someone who would listen to you. Hear you when you cried out to save someone from dying. You had lost a son because you felt no one had listen, was it going to be the same this time? Would no one hear your pleas, your crying anguish to save someone else you loved?
Yes, now I know. I didn't before. Oh I had hints but nothing positive. I thought that maybe there was something there, something that you were trying to hide as much as I was. But now it is out in the open. You stop hitting on the stupid mechanism long enough to scream "NO!" at me when I beg you to just go. Not because you are mad at me, but because you are mad at whatever fate keeps putting you in these spots. You don't want to leave me because you have figured out that I mean more to you then just another soldier under your command and I get that, I really do. But you must understand that I cannot allow you to stay here and die just because you cannot free me. Leave and come back – you will find a way to free me. That's what you do – that's what you are good at and you have proved that over and over.
Jack please, leave! Don't die because of me – leave and live your life because of me. Only then will I know how much you love me!
Wait! I feel you – you are here and you are holding me! I feel safe with my head on your shoulder and your face in my neck. We run with all we have in us but we feel lighter than we have in a long time. We know now that we can fight the war with the thought that one day, when all the fighting is over you will be mine and I will be yours – forever – no more hiding from the world – no more hiding from each other!
For that day I wait and I know that you will also – always!